20: The L word :)

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After hours and hours of Tony pleading with you, even more hours of you trying to find excuses to say "no", and countless times of everyone telling him to leave you alone, you finally gave in. 

You were going to switch in order to discover your powers. 

Turns out, there was actually a room made for testing stuff like this, a very strong, sturdy, and enforced one, glass walls, apparently some guy named "Loki" was kept in one. Only one issue.....it was at S.H.I.E.L.D. headquarters. 

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"How the hell are we supposed to sneak their most wanted into their own headquarters?" Sam asked. 

"Shield doesn't know her identity! Only we do!" Tony yelled. 

"That agent from the other day, he had an audio recording of her speaking, two more knew what was going on and who she was, and you want to just hope that they kept their mouth's shut?" Sam shot back. 

"Yes! They would've come and taken her or something by now if they knew." Tony protested. 

"Or, they're just waiting for something like this to happen so they can have a really good reason to take her. They're waiting for a screw up." Clint argued. 

"Not everything is some big conspiracy, Barton." Tony spat.

You looked around to try and understand everyone else and what they were thinking. For the most part, people were staying silent, probably for the best. Basically everyone was against Tony it seemed. 

Bucky stood up and leaned over the table to look Tony in the eye, "I'm going to say this once, and that's it. We don't know if hydra is still in S.H.I.E.L.D., so we don't know what information they hold. I'm not gambling on this one."

"He's right, it's too risky." Steve agreed. 

"Okay, fine, y/n, do you want to test it here, at the tower?" Tony asked in a kind-of-dickish tone. 

"Sure, but everyone, make sure that if- no, not if, when I get out of control, Tony is the first one to get hurt, it was his idea anyways." you said, matching his tone. 

"We're going to find a way into S.H.I.E.L.D., Fury is the director, I'll talk to him, but no, we're not doing it here." Nat interjected. 

You nodded your head to her in thanks and sat back down. 

"Well, that's all there was to discuss, even though I didn't ask for the peanut gallery. Go on with your day, peace." Tony announced, holding a peace sign up, of course. 

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After that dreadful discussion with the team, you decided to take a nap...but not in your own room of course, that's overrated, anyways. 

Bucky went off to go train with Steve, but you figured he'd be done by the time you woke up, so you decided to not even set an alarm, he'd probably wake you up for dinner. 

You just slid under the covers and allowed the pillows to consume you, sinking into a much-much needed rest. 

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Odin-forbid you have a decent rest, you were now sitting straight up, tangled in blankets, breathing quickened, hands trembling. 

"Great..another one." you muttered to yourself in frustration. 

You decided to get up to get a glass of water, but your legs buckled underneath you, causing you to hit the floor. Normally, this would just be a minor inconvenience, but today, this was the final straw. You leaned your back against the bed frame and pulled your knees to your chest, finally releasing all of the built up tension in the form of crying- something you haven't really done in years. 

The pattering sound of someone walking was getting closer and you only prayed that it was either Nat or Bucky.

Your hopes diminished as soon as you saw Peter taking an earbud out as he ran and crouched down in front of you. 

"Dammit." you whispered. 

"Uh, woah woah, are you okay?" he asked, concern making itself evident in his tone. 

You nodded your head, wiping the tears that stained your cheeks and faking a smile. "Yeah, see?" you choked, pointing to your smile. 

"I- uh, I don't think that's true....erm- do you want me to get someone? Mr. Stark is in his lab, if uh- If you want." he stuttered. 

"I'm good, could you uh, just get me a glass of water, and when Bucky's done training, let him know I'm in his room- don't tell him anything's wrong."

The kid nodded his head and began to walk out, "I'll be back in a minute, just don't move" he stage-whispered. 

You took that minute to compose yourself, standing just didn't seem possible, but you at least wanted to get back to a normal breath pace. 

In walked Bucky, anxiety springing off of him, followed by Peter who had his head down in shame. 

Bucky's eyes found you on the floor and his look of worry softened to one of sympathy as soon as he saw the shine of your leftover tears. "Y/n!? I knew something was up, come here.", he consoled, sitting next to you and putting an arm around your shoulders. 

Peter was still awkwardly standing in the doorway, holding a half-filled glass of water and looking at his feet. 

"Kid, don't feel bad, he's kind of a pro at sensing when someone's lying." you said, trying to make him feel a little better, "Thanks for the water by the way."

He looked a little relieved and set the glass down on your nightstand, "Uh, no problem, I'm gonna go now, I think Mr. Stark needs help or something."

Bucky snickered at Peter's lack of ability to hold a conversation, then turned his head to you. 

"So, you wanna tell me what's going on?"

"Not necessarily.", you joked, "but I probably should."

"Well, go on."

"I just...I don't know, it's a lot. Like my Mom and Dad might be alive...and they haven't tried reaching out to find me, so that's a big ouchie. And then, what if I get caught during this testing thing at SHIELD? Or worse, what if I hurt someone, and then there was today's panic attack and now we're here." You said, finally taking a deep breath and leaning your head onto his shoulder. 

"Okay we're gonna take that one at a time, what happened with the panic attack?"

"It was from a nightmare again, I guess." you shrugged, "it was about my parents not wanting me...because of all the bad things." 

"You know that's insane, right? I mean come on, how could anyone not want you?"

You giggled at his reaction, but continued, "I was in the base we just took down, they were there and...they were trying to hurt me..."

You shook your head, trying to erase the image, as if it were an etch-a-sketch drawing. Tears began to trickle down again, leaving dark spots in your (Bucky's) t shirt. 

"Sorry for being like this." you squeaked. 

"Nothin' to be sorry for...I love you." 

You had heard enough about the time stone to know that time stopping wasn't unlikely, and that's exactly what must've happened. 

"I-I love you too." you replied, face painted in joy. 

Bucky stood up and grabbed your hand to help you follow suit,  once you were steady, he yanked your arm and pulled you in for a wedding style, leaned over, arm holding the leg, (you know the ones), type of kiss. 

You grabbed the hem of the collar of his shirt and pulled him in closer, and magically, you could barely remember why you were upset in the first place. 


A/N: ayo y all sorry this took a few days to write, Idek why lol but it did, so sorry about that, I'll try to post a couple chapters tomorrow, also THANK YOU FOR 12K READS, I love the comments you guys leave, they're so funny and I normally read them during 1st period and they're beyond entertaining so keep 'em coming!

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