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It hurts to grow

HEY GUYS- So this takes place when meredith and derek decide to break up in 4x01.
-Hope you enjoy, if you have any other requests for this one-shot "book" 😂 you can comment below or send me a message on twitter
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Meredith knew that it was wrong to have avoided Derek for the time she had been with Cristina, but what was she supposed to do? Cristina was her person, he needed her to be there with her and it had seemed more appealing than staying in Seattle arguing with Derek over what future they would have.

Unfortunately now there was no way to escape what was coming. Their story was coming to an end and as much pain as it brought her to look into those blue eyes, she could not seem to form the words to speak to him.

"I, um..." she muttered out only in hope of breaking this awkward silence that filled the room, sadly she was met with that look of heartbreak- was it pity?

She truly couldn't handle this. Looking at the floor was her best option after having seen his facial expression.

"You're not ready for this" derek asked leaning against the metal bar of the bunk bed 

"No" she responded, focusing her eyes on the floor beneath her.

"I asked for too much" he asked, she could hear the heartbreak in his voice as he spoke.

"I think so." meredith responded looking to the side realizing truly what it meant to be without him. Had they truly gone through everything they had to just lose eachother once more.

"So this is it?" his eyes drilling into her,begging for her to look up at him

"Yeah" she spoke out looking into his eyes for a split second then back at the floor.

" We're breaking up." he asked

"We're breaking up." she replied, rolling her eyes at him needing clarification at this exact moment.

It really does hurt to grow

She could see him walking towards her through her lashes, suddenly she felt the overwhelming need to look up at him, into those piercing blue eyes that had the power to make her do things in an instant without thinking. 

"We're broken up" he repeated.

At this point, standing way too close for what was supposed to be a break up.

Meredith truly found herself annoyed with these small questionable statements that couldn't even amount to a decent conversation.

"It's done" she said, unfortunately looking up at him watching as he slowly leaned closer to her. In that second, she knew that this wasn't how people broke up but could they really say that they were conventional in any way.

She could hear the thunder from outside of the hospital-it rattled her in the core of her being ,reminding her of the night she found out he was married.

Memories flashed through her mind of him chasing her begging for her to give him a chance to explain. The heartbreak that she felt then similar to the one she was currently feeling. After everything they had been through, it broke her in her very core to know that they weren't going to work out. They truly never could truly let each other, but maybe this time it would stick.

He was way too close to her for this to be their break up. She was finally looking up at him, watching his eyes trail over her body.

She quickly looked down in hopes of breaking the gaze he held over her. She could see him coming closer to her-before she had time to react  his mouth was softly pressed against hers. She could feel his hand caress the side of her face  leaning in to kiss her harder sliding his tongue into her mouth.

Meredith knew that it was wrong to put herself in this situation again. Hadn't it been sex that put them in this situation in the first place?

But god knew she would never be able to resist him or that smirk painted across his face as he frantically spoke.

"So a breakup kiss" She heard him say once again placing his hands on the side of her face, a feeling far more intimate than one of a separating couple.

"A breakup kiss" she heard herself respond before he once again attached  his lips onto hers.

That feeling of security that she knew would leave her once they broke up. But all of those thoughts seemed to leave her mind in an instant when she felt his hands trail down her body pulling her closer to him.

She would never actually get tired of the feeling she got when his body was pressed against hers.

"And some breakup sex" derek mumbled against her frantically beginning to rip of her clothing.

"Yeah, breakup sex" she agreed pushing his cotton white lab coat off before pulling him back onto her.

The hunger she felt for him was frankly evident in that moment.

"This is wrong Derek '' Meredith spoke again trying to separate herself from him- though she knew if she really wanted him to stop he would have, but they both knew that she had no true intent of stopping him.

"I know mer" he whispered before his hands travelled to the bottom of her shirt teasing the idea of removing it.

How could she resist him when he looked at her with those blue eyes that glowed wild for her.
"take it off" she moaned seemingly giving him permission for everything that followed.

Without further hesitation Derek removed her shirt and followed her pants.

He lifted her thighs and sat her on the desk placed in the corner of the room.

Without warning he tugged at her pantries ripping them in the process of taking them off.

"derek" she whined, looking down at the torn garment though it soon became forgotten when she felt him insert a finger inside of her.

meredith let out a moan at the sudden contact leaning in towards his ear biting softly. 

She whined as his finger confused  quickly across her clit.

"DE-Derek PLEASE" Meredith pleaded tugging at his hair.

"Oh!" he heard her whimper.

"tell me what you want mer" he encouraged her.

"please derek-i want you to fuck me" she whined remembering she needed to stay quiet if they weren't going to get caught.

Derek let his pants fall to his ankles, leading  his penis towards her entrance.

"Derek!" She screamed feeling his lifting her thighs higher and thrusted harder again knowing well she enjoyed the wild side he showed during sex.

She tried to suppress her screams but nothing seemed to be able to silence her  as he pounded into her.

"FUCK Meredith..." Derek groaned feeling himself close just as they released together.

After recuperating, he led her to the bed where they laid side by side still unclothed-silent. Comfortable.

Derek knew that they should probably go their separate ways but not tonight.

Tonight they would be together.