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im literally so tired i shouldnt be writing if i want this to be good like srsly bro its 2:51 am uuughghurhhsrh. i finished the flats for the drawing, let me know if you think its trash or not :P ight imma go sleep now and actually write in the morning <I:P 

Umm, so its the morning and what was i thinking? i should've gone to bed not stay up until 5 am.... anyways heres he story, sorry for like this mess....

Rin pov

After Rin fell asleep, his rest was not an easy one. The voices in his head were all so angry and mean towards him, telling him to do awful things. He tried to not listen to them, but it was just so hard, and he just wanted to give in. 

Instead of a calm, dreamless sleep as the usual, his rest was met with horrors.

Rin's dream

Rin opened his eyes but all he saw was darkness. He tried calling out to see if anyone was there, but there was no response.

"Hello? Is anyone there?" Rin's voice shook as he spoke, feeling as if the darkness was going to suffocate him. He thought about using his flames, but the words of his classmates flashed through is mind, tormenting him once again. 

"I-I can't, it'll make me a monster." Rin put his head in his hands, tears starting to form as a sad smile appeared on his face. Who am I kidding, I already am a monster. 

Rin's laughter was the only sound that rang out in the dark abyss. It was hollow and with no joy, only pain and soon turned to screaming. He sunk to his knees, closing his mouth and stopping the noise.

"What did I do to deserve this?" Rin whispered, tears falling faster. As soon as he said this, a voice rang out, almost as if it had been waiting to hear him say those exact words.

"Everything, Rin." It boomed in the darkness, making Rin stand up and reach for his sword, only to find it gone.

"W-who are you? Where is my sword!" he said through gritted teeth, trying to stay calm and not panic. "And how do you know my name?" 

The only thing Rin got in response was a deep chuckle.

"Oh, I know much more thank just your name, and as for your sword, well since you are so weak I took it. Someone like you shouldn't have such a great weapon." The deep voice spoke in a manner which could make anyone want to curl up and hide from it. Rin resisted the urge to do so, not wanting the words it spoke to seem true.

"That's not true, I'm not w-weak." Rin said this as if he was trying to make himself believe too. The voice laughed again, it had a cold and merciless laugh, not unlike the one Rin had earlier.

"You are, and you know you are. So do your so called friends. So does Yukio." Rin could tell that whatever was speaking had a wide smirk on its face.

Rin tried to ignore the words it said, but the tugging in his stomach wouldn't let him. He wanted to shut it out but he couldn't when he himself thought the voice was truthful, even though he didn't want to. The next words it spoke would be the ones that broke Rin.

"Even dear old Shiro Fujimoto." This made Rin look up, shocked. He had always blamed himself for the old man's death, but hearing it from another person again made Rin want to give up right then and there. 

"No, no, no. It was and accident. I-I didn't mean, I didn't want him to, to..." Rin trailed off as he fell onto his knees again, looking at the dark floor underneath him like he wanted it to swallow him up. 

"It was your fault, Rin. If you had just done what he had said, Shiro would still be alive. It's all your fault." As the voice spoke, it got quieter, and quieter, until it faded away into nothingness.

"My fault..." Rin spoke softly as he collapsed onto the ground. 

End of the dream

Rin awoke with a jolt as he heard the bell ring, signaling the end of class. He lifted his head, making Kuro meow as he was shifted on Rin's shoulders. 

Standing up, he grabbed his things, remembering he had to meet Yukio after class. Rin was nervous about what he wanted to see him for. He didn't think he had done anything. 

I wonder what Yukio wants, I probably did something to upset him.  Rin sighed, a feeling of unease and exhaustion settling in. 

After the class had all filed out of the room, Rin walked up to Yukio, who had a concerned look on his face.

"Are you okay Rin?" Yukio spoke softly, as if Rin would shatter if he spoke too loud.

"Yea, of course I'm fine, why?" Rin asked nervously, scared Yukio had seen his arms.

"Because you are crying. Did something happen, if so don't be scared to tell me." Yukio again spoke in a soft tone. 

Rin reached up to his face, surprised when he felt wetness on his face.

"Huh, I am." He was shocked, he didn't even realize he was crying. "Don't worry about it, I just had a bad dream is all." He flashed a wide smile, which made Yukio relax a bit.

"Okay, but if you ever need anything, I'm here for you." Yukio smiled back softly, a look of worry still on his face.

"Geeze, you don't have to worry so much about me you four eyed chicken, I'm the older one anyways." Rin pushed his growing feeling of emptiness as he rolled his eyes at his twin. Yukio sighed, the worry gone replaced with annoyance.

"Don't call me that, and there was a reason I wanted to talk to you." he spoke normally now, as if he had forgotten the conversation he had just had with his brother. Rin looked up at Yukio, an eyebrow raised.

"You're going to start training with Shura to teach you how to control your flames. You start tomorrow after class, okay? Now I've got to go get ready, I have another mission." Yukio rubbed his temples and walked away muttering about how he was being worked too hard.

Rin took a moment to let what Yukio had said sink in. He was going to have to train more?!

"What! I'm going to have to train with Boobzilla?! And didn't you just get back?" Rin shouted to Yukio, who was already closing the door, ignoring Rin.

Wait, if Yukio is gone again tonight, that means I can- No! Rin cut off his thoughts before they could turn any worse. His arms had finally almost finished healing, his demonic powers took a bit slower to work on his self inflicted wounds. 

Rin sighed, looking towards Kuro, he started his way back to the dorms, scared of what he might do next.

Heyyyyy, sorry this took so long, i was just being lazy. I hoped you liked this one, and maybe prepare for the next one, its def gonna have a tw. also, i promise there will be bonrin, its just gonna take a little bit of time to get here, I promise that it will get here tho. n e ways, love yall, let me know what u think!! stay safe, drink water, and get some rest!!

~Milo <3