One More Step

Thank You

Wow! Another part? I must be going crazy or something. Anyways, please enjoy this train wreck. :P

After Bon pulled away from Rin, he grabbed his hand, pulling him towards the bed. Bon sat down, patting the soft blanket next to him. Rin sat down on it, keeping his head down, looking anywhere but Bon.

"Before you say anything," Bon started, his voice unsteady, "I just want to let you know that I won't judge you for anything you want to tell me. You don't have to even tell me everything right now, but please, please, just tell me something. Tell me what you're thinking right now, just anything." Bon was looking over at Rin, who could hear that he was trying to keep tears at bay.

"Right now," Rin's own voice was shaking and he didn't know if he was going to be able to keep what little composure he had steady. "I just feel sort of lost, I guess." Rin's mind was racing. He was confused why Bon of all people was so concerned, and even trying to help him. I thought Bon saw me as a monster? Why is he being so nice?  "I'm just so tired." Tears began to well in Rin's eyes, who was cursing himself for being so weak. I can't even go one hour without crying, I really am such a loser.

"I'm sorry." Bon spoke quietly, it was his turn to look away from Rin, guilt seeping into his words. This simple sentence made Rin's head whip up. He never thought Bon would be the one to say this to him. Maybe Shiemi, but Bon was too stubborn in his mind. "I should have never said what I said to you. I was awful. We all were. You didn't deserve any of it. I was so angry. Angry at someone you aren't, but I took it out on you anyways. You didn't do any of the things I am angry about. You can't do anything about them. I'm so sorry. I know it isn't enough to repair anything, but I still want to let you know." 

All Rin could do was stare. He never thought anyone would say anything like this to him. Is he lying? Is he just trying to get you to open up so he can better tear you down? The voices in the back of his head were screaming at him to not believe anything that was coming out of Bon's mouth, but he really wanted to believe it. Rin let go of holding back his tears, letting them fall freely down his face. He couldn't get any words out, all of them getting caught in his throat as he began to break down. For the first time ever, Rin let himself cry in front of someone else. He felt the rough had of the boy next to him hesitantly touch his back. Rin leaned into it as Bon pulled him into another hug. He could feel Bon's own body shaking as he too cried. 

They both sat there for what felt like an eternity before either one pulled away, and when they did, it was not awkward or cold. There was some new spark of understanding and feelings that now flowed between the two boys. The silence was warm and calm. It was more calm and okay than Rin had felt in a while. And when it was broken the calm stayed.

"Thank you."

HEYYYYY GUYS!!!!! I know I know, another part? So soon? I was struck by the sudden motivation called being bored at night, so what else would I do other than write more of my angsty fanfic! But in all seriousness, I will try and post more frequently. I absolutely love reading comments yall make, so if anyone reading this has anything, and I mean anything they want to say, feel free to comment! It keeps me motivated to write more like a lot. But other than that, I hope you guys are feeling all warm and fuzzy now, but don't get too used to it. :P I really don't have any other updates or anything, so just please enjoy the story and I hope you have a wonderful day/night and drink plenty of water lovelies <3