"I'm not a lab rat" Izuru Kamukura Angst

despair

Izurus P.O.V.

I agreed without any kind of hesitation or even a single second thought. If I could go back and change that I would.

We sit up on a roof top where she reveals her plan, which is already technically started. Im more just here to see what happens. I don't know much about humans, some are cruel. That's it.  She seems to be cruel to, but in a different way. "So you're telling me you wanna destroy a school, force kids into a killing game, and put a whole class into a simulation while turning them into despair servants?" "Yeah pretty much!" Why the hell did i agree to this. "Itll all be in the sake of despair!" Despair. I whisper the word. "Despair..." it tastes bitter and sour in the mouth. I don't know why but the idea, even the very word, i hate it. But I'm stuck now. "From what it looks like people are already getting mad at hopes peak" she giggles like a maniac.

I don't know why but I feel like there's a clock ticking down. Waiting for me to stop it somehow. This over whelping feeling of...something...fear...dred...that I just can't escape. Like there's some countdown and the longer I wait the faster it gets. LIKE I NEED TO STOP SOMETHING FROM HAPPENING. But what can I do...im just an experiment...a tool. Junk would think my suffering is funny so I keep it all inside.

As time goes by I see the world slowly falling apart. Make it stop. I wanna scream but I can't. She let me out, this is what I wanted...SO WHY IS ALL I WANT NOW TO RUN AWAY TO TELL EVERYONE WHATS GOING ON.

After more time passes we have the nurse girl and the dumb animator kid locked away here. It seems to all be going to plan. Until some kids somehow find our little hide out. I look at them and they look at me. Some white haired kid who looks crazy and some girl. Not just some girl some girl with pinkish brown hair and pink eyes. Then the white haired kid starts going on some rant about hope...hope...hope is my enemy adoring to junko. Then before I can fully process whats going on the kid pulls a gun on me. Surprise it jams so I walk over to him and take it. "Good luck is ut? Well I have that to" i shot him and junko stop laughing and jumping up and down while the pink eyed girl starts freaking out and asking her little friend if he's okay. Somehow he lived.

After we get them to leave us alike junko starts talking. But I can't focus on her words. That girl looked so finials. There was a second of surprise when she looked at me, I most likely had the same reaction, I hope not though. Why did she seem so familiar. Who is she.