Dear Diary,
I can't sleep.
It's 2:11 in the morning and I can't sleep.
I'm thinking of him. Of Manu. He showed me his dimples. He saw me.
I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve his dimples. I didn't deserve to be seen.
But it happened anyways.
I'm a lucky person.
I have school today, and I have to get ready in four and a half hours.
I don't think I'll sleep before then.
I'll need a cup of coffee and an apple to get me through to lunch.
That's all though. I don't usually eat or drink anything in the mornings.
It's 2:15 in the morning now. That took 4 minutes to write.
I really wish sleep would come.
I don't want to have eye bags the day after Manu sees me. He might see me again.
I have a lot of stuffed animals.
I like stuffed animals. They're soft.
I talk to them sometimes. Sometimes I hug them.
They stand in for my friends.
My friends who left me alone.
My favorite two stuffed animals are named Sherman and Percy.
Sherman is a llama. My cousin loved llamas. He died though.
Percy is an owl. My mom gave him to me. He has sparkly feet.
...
It's 2:20 in the morning.
...
I cried again earlier.
I did something bad and I had a panic attack. I was hyperventilating. I felt really bad.
I was forgiven though.
I shouldn't have been forgiven.
I have cried too many times this week.
3 times.
I shouldn't cry again. People would get annoyed.
They would leave me, even if they weren't there in the first place.
It's 2:22 in the morning.
I'm going to try and sleep.
Have a good life.
Love,
Me
YOU ARE READING
Dear Diary (boy x boy)
General Fiction(ON HOLD) The story of Arson Grey told by his diary entries. Arson has a tiny itty bitty crush on Manu Shine. And by "tiny itty bitty crush" i mean he's in love. Arson has liked Manu since freshman years, and now they're juniors in high school. Pro...
