⇓ Entry 8 ⇓

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Dear Diary,

Today was terrible.

I cried a lot today. 

Here's what happened:

I went to school. It was a normal day. I had everything I needed, I had classes today as per usual. I walked in and wanted to find Manu. I liked seeing Manu. 

But not today. Today I didn't want to see Manu. 

But I did.

He was kissing a girl.

A girl.

Girl.

More than kissing. They were trading DNA and it was very intimate. Too intimate for the open hallway where anyone could see. 

I was surprised they still had clothes on. 

My heart shattered. My life came crashing down. All the times Manu saw me, he barely saw me. He didn't care about me. He cared about her. 

He likes girls.

I'm a guy.

He likes girls.

Girls.

Women.

Not guys.

Not boys.

Not men. 

Although I wouldn't call myself a man. I'm a boy. A coward. 

I ran away.

I ran.

Away.

Away from Manu.

Away from the girl.

Away from my problems.

The last one didn't quite work though. 

I ran outside. To the garden. The maze. 

The garden maze.

I got to the middle. 

I cried. A lot.

I cried about Manu.

About how he likes girls.

About how he was kissing her.

About how pretty she was.

About how nice of a couple they would be.

I ran home, even though school wasn't over.

I had classes with Manu that day.

I didn't want to see Manu.

I got home. I cried. A lot.

Oh, well that embarrassing

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Oh, well that embarrassing.

I wasn't going to tell you.

I guess I should explain now though.

I cut.

Yea.

I cut my wrists.

That's all.

I should go now.

Have a nice life.

Love,

Me

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