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Chapter 13- Complications

I walked up the cellar doors and into the living room.  I handed the bourbon in my hands over to Damon and rushed to grab my car keys.

"I think I am going to head home now," I said to the group and they all groaned annoyingly.

"Why! We were just having so much fun," Caroline said drunkenly. 

"I'm tired and I want to go to bed so- Have a good night I will see you all tomorrow," I said and heard Kai and Jeremy coming.  I hurried out the door. I ran to my car, my breathing was a mess and my hair was even worse.  It was up in flames, I couldn't control it at the moment. I jumped into the driver's seat and found myself struggling to put my belt on. I was shaking like crazy.  I eventually gave up on the whole seatbelt idea and started the engine. I put my car in reverse and started to back out when I heard a door shut.  I gasped and put my brakes on before I went flying down the road.  I looked beside me and there he was.

"Kai! You scared me, I could've hit something," I yelled at him nudging him in the arm.

"Ow! *mocking* I could have hit something, like what!" He said with an eye roll.

"An animal! A tree! A pole! Literally anything.  Now stop with your attitude or I will kick you out of my car and force you to walk home," I said putting the car back in reverse. He stayed quiet.

"I could just teleport there," He said under his breath but I heard him.

"If you want to teleport there, fine, be my guest!" I said opening his door and gesturing for him to get out. He sighed and shut it. "Exactly," I said and before he could open his mouth I turned the radio on and blared music.  I didn't even like the songs, and he knew that, I just wanted him to shut it. I was so angry and sad.  How could Jeremy like me?  We were just friends and now this news changes everything! I felt my skin heating up, and as I thought more and more about it, it turned red. Kai looked at me like I was a glowstick in the night.  Which was pretty accurate considering I did look like that.  I tried taking deep breaths, with no use of calming down I stopped the car on the side of the road. 

"I'm sorry I need some fresh air," I said to Kai without looking at him.  I was embarrassed to show him my eyes and he knew it.  Something so stupid like a guy liking me other than my boyfriend made me so upset. I felt torn, between not caring and caring.  It was tearing me apart on the inside and I tried so hard not to feel it but I did. I got out of the car and shut the door behind me. I passed back and forth before putting my hands on my knees.  I felt weak.

"Y/N are you okay?" Kai asked rolling the window down.  I took my hands off my knees and stammered back a bit before nodding my head yes.  It wasn't convincible at all. Kai used his vampire speed to come to me. "Y/N look at me..." He said trailing off.  I still didn't look at him. I shook my head no, I had trouble breathing all of a sudden.

"Why..can't..I..breath," I asked breaking through breaths.

"You're having a panic attack.  Come on," He said and grabbed my face in his hands.  He tried to get me to look at him but I closed my eyes and pulled away.

"I can't look at you, not like this.  It's embarrassing to be so angry and hurt over something as simple as someone liking you.  But I just can't help it knowing he likes me, even though he knows I love you.  It will end up in our friendship being broken because he likes me and I don't like him back.  He set me up for failure either way," I said walking back to the car.  My hair fell to its natural colour and down on my shoulders.  My skin cooled off a bit. I got back in the car and waited for him, too.

"Y/N-" Kai said before I shushed him with music. I blared some random song while we drove home.  Not a single word came out of his mouth nor mine for the whole way home. When we arrived he opened the car door yet I didn't move. 

"Coming?" He said gesturing to the house.  

"Yeah, just give me a minute," I said still not looking at him.  My eyes swelled up with tears as he walked inside.  It was best for him to leave and not see me like this.  Distraught, beaten, weak. When he was out of sight I let all my emotions out. Crying my heart out while my forehead rested on the steering wheel.  I didn't even know why I was crying.  I calmed myself and my breath before waking inside. I walked in and Kai was asleep on the couch.  I saw him laying there, peaceful, calm, cute and I couldn't hold it in again.  I shut the door and tears streamed down my face.  My back slumped down the door while I put my head between my knees. I knew why I was crying, and all it took was to look at him.  I was crying because he was hurt.  He was hurt knowing someone other than him had my attention. Well, that's at least what he thought. 

"Y/N, what are you doing?" Kai whispered from the couch.  I gasped and looked up at him forgetting I had just been balling my eyes out. My face was red and so were my eyes.  He looked at me concerned and then realized what was happening. I stood up before he had time to react and ran outside, slamming the door behind me. I ran into the backyard, into the woods.  I ran and ran not even knowing why I was running from him in the first place.  My skin went on fire and so did my hair the more and more I thought of what Kai thinks of me now. I ran until I tripped over a rock. I had hit my head over it and was bleeding everywhere.  I was still on fire, until, I fell asleep.