BEHIND BLUE EYES - ROGER DALTREY

five

23rd may, 1968

I hadn't seen Roger or Pete for a couple weeks since that night. I was yet to tell Pete what had happened, unsure whether I should. We usually tell each other everything, but I was unsure to whether he would be thrilled or frustrated at the fact his bandmate had tried to kiss me, purely out of protection. I had told Rachael and she told me I was stupid but she understood that I was nervous and panicking. I have never been good at expressing my emotions, especially when it came to romance. I have only been in two previous serious relationships. The first was with a boy called Arthur during college, we mutually decided to end the relationship as we were both attending different universities. The second was with a boy called Matt in the first year of uni. He was lovely at first but he was extremely toxic and jealous of my friendship with Pete. Let's just that say Pete despised him.

I know from those past relationship experiences that I have never felt true love. So when I feel I'm coming close to a relationship, I panic, not wanting to mess it up but ending up doing so in the process.

I've managed to push the blonde haired boy out of my mind for the past two weeks as I've been focusing on uni. Next Friday is my graduation and Rachael and I are currently shopping for dresses in the shops of London.

"What about this one?" Rachael holds up a yellow frock with flowers on it, I roll my eyes, "No, thank you I don't want to look like a five year old girl at my graduation." She laughs, putting the dress back on the rack. I browse through the rest of the dresses, a navy blue one catching my eye. It was knee length with halter straps and I instantly loved it.

"Rach! Look at this one!" I show her the dress and her jaw drops, "You need to try that on!" I giggle as we make our way to the changing rooms. I slip into the cubicle and put the dress on. I adored the dress. It hugged me tight at the waist but flowed perfectly to my knees. The halter straps were so flattering and I knew immediately that this was the dress I wanted.

I draw the curtain, stepping out of the cubicle to show Rachael the dress. She smacked her hand to her mouth. "Annie! You look gorgeous, it suits you so much!" I twirl around, giggling, "I think this is the one, Rachael." She nods,   "This is definitely the one, no doubt about it."

I got changed out of the dress and purchased it from the woman behind the till who thanked me as we walked out the shop. Rachael had already bought her dress in March as she was determined to find the perfect one and so she gave herself enough time to do so. It's beautiful and a lot fancier than mine, mainly because she was from a wealthier family than me, and her parents bought it for her. My parents probably don't know that I am graduating this year.

We arrive home and I flop onto the sofa, "God, shopping is tiring. How do people do it?" Rachael laughs at me, "We were only out for two hours! It wasn't that bad." I shrug, "I am really happy with my dress. I might ask Pete over to come and see it." I walk over to the phone and dial his number.

I wait momentarily until a voice answers, "Hello?" I sigh when I hear the voice of my best friend. "Hey Pete, it's Bella. I bought my dress today for my graduation today. Want to come over and see it?" He chuckles, "As much as I'd like to admire your new dress, I'm going to rehearsal soon with the boys. I can come round tomorrow?" He suggests, "You're rehearsing? But you just got back from your tour." I frown, I swear that band never has a bloody rest. "Yes, but we're going to start recording the new album soon. Plus, we've booked a last minute gig on Friday. You could come along to rehearsal if you want?" I think about it, but I'm too awkward to be around Roger right now. "I'll give it a miss Pete, next time?"

"Is this about what happened with you and Rog?" My eyes widen, "W-what?" He laughs slightly, "He told me, Bel, I was quite pissed off to be honest. But, he's Rog, you know he's like. He's probably moved on by now," Ouch. "It'll be fine, so, please come, for me?" He knew I couldn't resist him, so I found myself nodding to myself. "Okay, fine. Where is it again?" I can feel him grew through the phone, "I'll pick you up in half an hour, see you soon Bella!" He hangs up.