Nanny To The Supreme Leader Kylo/Reader

Zilturik

⚠️Trigger Warning ⚠️
This chapter contains violence and trauma. We delve into Y/N's past and it isn't pretty. I don't go into very deep detail but it can be a bit heavy so proceed with caution.

Also, I know that the picture at the top is Bib Fortuna but his look is the inspiration for my character Zilturik so just try to forget Bib exists. 🤪

Kylo had been in his office all day. You kept walking past the door hoping to talk to him about the events that occurred during training, but every time you got close to knocking, you lost your nerve. Kylo wasn't the easiest person to talk to during normal circumstances but what you had witnessed from him earlier made the idea of talking to him sound absolutely terrifying.

You sat in the living room lost in thought as the boys played a board game after dinner. It was nearing their bedtime and you wondered if Kylo was still planning on putting them to bed or if you should just do it yourself. He was always very adamant about the bedtime routine as long as he was home but he hadn't even come out of his office for dinner so you thought maybe he was too busy.

"Okay you two. I think it's about time to get ready for bed."
"But what about Dad?" Sion looked toward the hallway where the office door was still closed.
"I don't think-"
Before you could finish your sentence, the door swung open and Kylo walked into the living room.

"You don't think what, Miss Y/N?"
"Oh. I just wasn't sure if you were busy and couldn't lay them down tonight."
Kylo sighed and rolled his eyes. "Go get in your pajamas Corr and Sion. I'll be in there in a minute."
Kylo looked very tired but he did seem much calmer than he was that morning.

Once the boys were out of the room, Kylo sat in the seat next to you.
"Why have you been pacing outside of my office door all day? It was very distracting."
You chewed on your bottom lip anxiously. Even though you had been thinking about talking to him all day, you didn't feel prepared in the moment.
"I, uh...I'm sorry for distracting you."
"Since when have you ever been sorry for that, Princess?"

Princess? How the heck was this man the same man that had basically threatened your life that same day? You couldn't keep up with his mood swings.

"Well, I just wanted to talk to you."
"Hm, about what?"
"About...about this morning. The training incident."
Kylo sighed and ran his hand through his messy hair. "I thought we already talked about that. What more is there to discuss?" He didn't seem angry, just kind of frustrated that you were bringing it up again.

"The boys were pretty down afterwards. I think it really scared them. I know that you just want to protect them, but I was thinking maybe it was just a little bit too much." You inwardly prepared yourself for his reaction but when you looked into his eyes, you could see he wasn't about to unleash his wrath on you. He actually seemed to be taking your words in.

"You're right."
Your jaw dropped. You didn't know exactly what you had expected him to say but you definitely hadn't anticipated him agreeing with you especially not that quickly. Not after how he had reacted when you dared to say something earlier.
"I am?"
"Yes. I took out my own issues on them. I shouldn't have done that."
You could almost visibly see his walls coming down. Mrs. Baize was right. When it came down to it, Kylo Ren was a good and caring father. The fact that he could admit his faults proved that.

"Why were you upset this morning? Was it something I did last night?"
Kylo turned toward you quickly. "No, you didn't do anything. I-"

"Dad! We are ready!" Corr stuck his head out from around the corner fully dressed in his pajamas waiting for his father.
"Okay, I'm coming. We can talk later." Kylo stood up and made his way to the hallway.
You sighed. You had hoped you could continue this before he inevitably put his walls back up but you understood.
"Okay. Good night."