Nanny To The Supreme Leader Kylo/Reader

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"What is it that you want to know about me?"

You couldn't believe the words coming out of Kylo's mouth. Was he actually willing to open up to you? You took a moment to decide what you wanted to ask. So many questions swirled through your mind. You didn't know how deep you could go without him closing off to you again so you decided to start with something more simple. Or so you thought it was simple.

"Tell me about your childhood. What were you like before becoming the infamous Kylo Ren?"
Kylo stiffened at your question. "Why would you want to know about that?"

You made your way closer to him. "Well, a person's childhood can greatly impact who they are as adults. You got to see a glimpse at the end of my childhood. I just thought it would only be fair to get a glimpse into yours."

Kylo took a deep breath. "There's not much to tell."
"There has to be something. Maybe a fond memory with your parents?"
"My parents? I don't discuss my parents. They mean nothing to me as I did to them."
"I can understand that."
"Can you?"
"Well, yeah. My own mom sold me for drug money and never came back. I thought that maybe it was a mistake. Maybe she would come to her senses and come back for me but with every day, week, month and year that passed, I knew I had to face the fact that she wasn't coming back. That she didn't care about me. I don't know if she ever did."

You both stood in silence for a moment. Memories that you both tried so hard to push down were resurfacing. Kylo looked at you as you looked down at your feet. He could feel your sadness and your pain as you thought back to those days with Zilturik. He wanted to pull you out of your thoughts even if it meant worsening his own pain. He didn't understand why he felt that way but he decided to just embrace it.

"My parents abandoned me as well. They feared me. Feared my powers. They didn't know how to handle me so they just dropped me off with my uncle and never came back. They said that I would be better off with him. That he could train me in the force and make me into a great Jedi like he was." Kylo took a deep breath before continuing. "Well, he did train me and other young Jedi's as well but he too began to fear me. One night he...he came into my room while I was asleep. I opened my eyes and saw him standing above me, lightsaber drawn and ready to strike me. He was going to kill me. He was looking down at me with hatred and fear in his eyes as if he was looking down at a monster, not his nephew. Not the young boy he was in charge of training and raising."

"That's terrible. What did you do?"
"I did what I had to. I only wish I had killed him then but I was weak. I didn't make that mistake twice." He cleared his throat and straightened his shoulders. "That's enough of that. I don't dwell on the past and neither should you. You should get some sleep."
You sighed, a little disappointed but you had gotten him to open up more than he had before and that would just have to do for now.

"I don't think I'll be able to sleep. Every time I close my eyes I have to jolt them back open again. Too many memories flashing behind them."
Kylo looked around anxiously. "Would it help if you...if you slept with me? You know, just so you're not alone."
You couldn't help the small smile that formed on your face. Kylo was offering you comfort and he looked so nervous doing it. It was kind of cute even though 'cute' was never a word you had thought to describe Kylo before. Sexy, scary, complicated and exciting were words you thought of most often when you thought of him. Cute and comforting Kylo was a pleasant surprise.

"Sure. I think that may help. Are you sure?"
"Yes. Come." Kylo turned on his heel and began walking to his room. Butterflies fluttered around in your stomach as you thought about sleeping in the same bed as Kylo again. After everything you and Kylo discussed tonight, you knew it was different. The difference was almost palpable in the air.