Crimson Blue Snow

Part XIV- "Covered by roses"

Part XIV- "Covered by roses"

 A few days later they were released for home treatment with notes not to strain themselves. In the following days they were forbidden to do more difficult physical work, to practice singing/ playing guitar, to ride a motorcycle... Michelle was their helping hand, not allowing them to do anything that could make their condition worse.

 Morning; Beata's listening to music on the phone, Amadea's getting ready to go somewhere. Beata (confused): "Where are you going? If you need something to buy, Michelle will come later, so tell him." Amadea (kisses her): "I'm going to get something that won't put us in these situations anymore, I've arranged to shop through the dark web. I'll be back in about an hour." Beata (worried): "What did you buy?" Amadea: "The gun. (Beata gets shocked) We'll take it with us in risky situations." Beata (slowly rising): "But it's a ilegal! If they find that gun, you can go to jail!" Amadea: "Either to jail with it or to the grave without it. You can see the police didn't do anything and we were both almost dead. All my life I hope this world will reduce condemnation and discrimination, and here's how far it's come! All my life I've endured all kinds of ridiculing and humiliation, and now that I'm supposed to finally live more normally with the person I care about they're destroying even that! I don't want to be afraid to go through town at night just because we're girls or because we're in a relationship or for whatever reason. What I stand for in life and in my art are freedom, equality and peace, but it seems that peace is impossible to have without war in this society. No one will humiliate us like this anymore." Beata: "I'm not sure it's a smart idea, if you kill someone with that gun..." Amadea: "They didn't think will they kill us either. (leaving)"

 It's been a few days since that - their condition has improved slightly, with both of them being annoyed by that they can't sing/ play at full capacity. Beata had nightmares several times, which would take her out of her sleep every time. She told Amadea that she had dreamed of her deceased father, and that the nightmare then turned into the night they were attacked, ending with falling into the abyss. This worried Amadea very much, worrying about whether this nightmare signifies the past, present and future, so she looked after Beata in order to be prepared if she noticed the slightest change up in her condition and thus prevent potential problems.

 She ignored the worsening of her symptoms - worsening headaches, blurry vision, frequent nausea due to a severe damage to the head, with occasional suffocation and heart failure. Occasionally, she would cough blood, immediately throwing bloody tissues into the toilet because she didn't want to get upset about it. It scared her if everything was going to be okay with Beata, while comforted herself that her symptoms were temporary.

 A quiet evening; Michelle went home, Beata and Amadea sit hugged on the couch with headphones in their ears. Beata (quiet): " "Cementary Gates" by the Pantera is over, followed by "Desert Inferno" by the band Razorwyre. What an epic intro." Amadea (looks at her): "It's even more magnificent when I listen to it with you. (they listen to the song in silence) Perfect for headbanging, but we can't." Beata: "There'll be time for that, we'll be back on stage. You've seen how many people stand by us, we have support from different parts of the world. (new song begins) Um, this song is... Rammstein. The band is Rammstein, I don't know the song." Amadea: " "Sonne". (Sun) I don't know if you remember that video with Snow White..." Beata: "Yes, yes... Everyone knows about "Du Hast" but this one is just as beautiful. I know you want to sing, but don't strain your vocal cords." Amadea: "I'm trying, but all this music makes me wanna sing along. I'm used to following a tune or singing." Beata (smiles seductively): "I know how you won't be tempted... (kisses her gently) How about this?" Amadea (smiles): "I think it will be effective. (kisses her back) I love you. I wouldn't have bear it if something had happened..." Beata: "Shh... We're not going to talk about difficult topics right now. (sees song list) "Doro Pesch- Love me in black". This is the right song for us." Amadea: "The song has no happy ending. I don't know how our story goes, but it doesn't have to end like that." Beata (listens to the lyrics): "This is how you were insecure at the beginning. (tightens Amadea harder in her arms) You're the nicest thing that's ever happened to me. Thank you for letting me meet you." Amadea (whispers): "Thank you for not giving up on me, in your place many didn't even try to reach me. You're what I wanted, someone who would fully understand me. I hope you know how much you mean to me. (breathing heavily) I was dead for years, and you gave me life again." Beata: "You showed me what happiness is. All those pains would be nothing compared to losing you. I'll do everything I can to make sure that doesn't happen, you've become part of my soul without which everything falls apart. (song ends, Beata turns off music) Are you asleep, Ami? (see Amadea is not breathing) Ami?! (panicked) Ami, what's happening, open your eyes... Amadea, wake up! (calling Michelle) Bro, sorry to bother you, Amadea stopped breathing! She needs to go to the hospital. (feels abdominal pain) The hell with this pain! Are you coming?" Michelle (scared): "I'm calling an ambulance to get to the apartment right away, wait for them there and I'll pick you up, we'll go right after them. Okay?" Beata (shaking): "Okay, just hurry up! (continues to call out to Amadea, at the same time holding on to her stomach in pain)"

 Ambulance quickly arrived for Amadea while Michelle drove Beata in his car. Somewhere halfway through, Beata's condition got worse and the pain became unbearable, so Michel was in a hurry to get to the hospital as soon as possible. Amadea was taken to the emergency department, where her condition was found to have deteriorated over the past few days.

 Michelle and Beata arrived shortly after the van. Beata got really sick and went to the bathroom right away to wash her face, but she had to throw up first. She realized something was wrong again when she vomited large amounts of blood, so she barely made it to the bathroom door and passed out in the hallway.

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  Another wake-up in the hospital room. Amadea looks around and says, "Oh, damn it, I'm here again. (concerned) Bea probably got really worried for no reason, I need to find her and give her a hug. I'm such a bad-luck person, we just had a nice evening and something has to destroy it, the hell with it. (covers herself with a sheet) They could have at least left me a suit instead of these hospital clothes... (coughs and spits out blood)... Of course. (goes to the door)"

 She saw Michelle crying in the hallway, he noticed her and came to her. Michelle: "Why did you get up? Let's go inside, I have to tell you something. Amadea (scared): "Where's Beata? Is everything all right with her?! (Michelle cries again) WHAT HAPPENED TO BEATA?!!!" Michelle: "She got worse, you know she hasn't healed well... She fainted in the hallway... They took her to the surgery room because she was bleeding internally again... (shakes)... Her internal organs were failing from injuries. (cries) She passed away just over an hour ago."

 Amadea falls to her knees, breathing heavily, completely devastated. Quietly she said, "I should have died, I didn't deserve to have her by my side, I wasn't worthy of her." Michelle (kneels in front of her): "As we drove here Beata told me to look after you if anything happened to her, as if she knew... Yesterday you stopped breathing, she thought you were dead and panicked... "Amadea (shouts): "Why didn't I die, damn it? They shouldn't have helped me. (hits her head) Come on, you stupid brain, now betray me, now!" Michelle (stops her): "Don't, it's not your fault. I can blame the whole world out of desperation, but it wouldn't be fair. You know who's the culprit, but you can see they won't be punished! You can see they didn't do anything about your case, damn it!" Amadea (numb): "Don't worry... There's someone who's going to punish them. (gets up and goes out in the hallway)" Michelle (goes after her): "Where are you going? You need to rest." Amadea (decisive): "Tomorrow I'll rest, now I have work to do. Where are my things?" Michelle (put hands on her shoulders and look her in the eyes): "I know you're broken for this, too, but don't do anything stupid." Amadea: "I won't. I want to dress up for a start so I don't go down the hall in this like a fool." Michelle (shows): "There's a wardrobe, I'll ask them to bring you your clothes." Amadea (nods): "Thank you."

 Amadea puts on her things, takes the key to the apartment from Michelle and, even though he was trying to stop her, she went back to the apartment to get something she needed.