NMSC 6: Entangled Hearts (Tiaom)

chapter 25

I can't believe what I just heard from Steph. Is she serious?I'm just staring at her while she was standing in front of me, maybe waiting for my answer. We stayed that way for almost a minute.

Steph: what? are you just going to stare at me? Is there No response at all?I don't know what to say. I don't know.

Steph: Oh God! I'm like a fool here, say something.

 Athena: i. I don't know what to say. I don't

Steph: OK, ill make it easy for you

She steps closer to me, and then she wraps her arms around my waist.

Steph: what do you feel?

My heart wants to burst out from my chest. My hands were shaking, and I can't feel my face. So I close my eyes and let my feelings go. I open my eyes, and I'm already embracing Steph too. And it was so tight. I can feel her heartbeat on mine.That was fast. Were friends before, and now she's held my hand while I am listening to her stories. On how she fell in love with me.

Steph: I don't know how it happened. Even I can't figure out how and why. Maybe this is true love. There is no explanation at all. How about you? You've been quiet since I told you about my feelings. Perhaps you don't feel the same way. Maybe you're.

Athena: I'm the first one who fell for you.

Steph: really?

 Her sweet smile showed up from her face. Athena: on our first meeting, after a very long year of not seeing each other. I already got a crush on you. and then when we decided to live together. It got stronger. Sometimes I imagine we were more than friends. But I was afraid that you wouldn't accept me as me. So I choose to hide this feeling.

 Steph: me too, I thought you were straight, and I was the one who is not. And what if I'm assuming that you like me too. What if I lose you?

Athena: (laughed) so funny, right? 

Steph: Yeah, so very funny 

we both exhaled

Steph: about the video. I want to know what happens.

Athena: OK. but 

Steph: don't worry, I won't change my mind whatever I hear from you.

Athena: (exhaled) Ashley, she was the first to know that I'm not straight. She was first my best friend, and then I told her I love her. She admitted that she also feels the same.

Steph: that was super like us

,Athena: yes, but we were different. Right?

Steph: (nodded) I promise, now proceed

Athena: we started dating, and we became an official couple. But of course, without telling anyone. We hide it from everybody, including our friends and our parents, of course. They think we were just best friends. But inside our dormitory. When we are alone, we do what lovers should do. We've been that way for five months, and it was OK with me. And then suddenly, she wants to have a separate room, her reason is, she can't focus if I'm with her. I'm like a distraction to her. But I respect her decision. she moved out, and I got a new roommate. It started the conflict between us. She was always mad at me and accusing me that I'm flirting with my roommate. And then one night we had a huge argument. It didn't end up well. She broke up with me. I tried to talk to her. to fix what is between us. But she was avoiding me. And then somebody told me. She's now with a guy. and they were living together. I'm so hurt. I was having a thought of hanging myself. But someone saved me. Ashley knew about that incident. after a month, and I'm OK, I got new friends. And they let me feel better. I almost realize that I can survive without her. Then she suddenly calls me. She was asking if we could talk. I should've said no. but she's still my weakest part. It was senior night. We talk in one of the vacant rooms inside the campus. She told me that she was sorry. and she still loves me. But I told her I'm already OK and it's good to be friends. She said it was OK with her. and she gave me a drink.I refuse at first, but she said it was just soda. So I took it, after a few sips, I felt dizzy. But I tried to stand up, but my legs were already shaking, so I sat down again. Then I saw her. She stood up. And she kissed me. I heard people, but I'm so dizzy. I fell asleep. I woke up because of the camera flashes and laughs. I feel so weak, but I manage to stand up. My pants are unbuttoned, and I'm shirtless at all, wearing only my (sigh) bra

.Steph rubs her hands on my back, trying to comfort me.

Athena: I have no idea what happened. I wasn't able to watch the video because I'm so disgusted with myself. I had nightmares, and I'm hearing people laughing in my sleep. And ash, I don't know why she did that to me. Then a photo of me kissing her spread out just before that video came out. I can't even go out of my room after what happened. even my roommate moved out. I was alone. And slowly, I can see everything in my life crashing down. Just because of one wrong choice I made that night. I wish I didn't talk to her again. I wish I could avoid her.