Shitty Jegulus Story

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James's pov

I wake up due to the fact that I hear Moony and Wormtail shout at Pads about something not sure what though "why are you guys shouting at Padfoot ?" They look at me and just say nothing ,until Wormtail finally speaks up " Ok um well " he stutters out " just spitt it out Wormy " I spit out at him ,getting quite annoyed ' damn mood swings ' I think to my self feeling bad for how I spoke to Peter ." I saw a massive bruise on your neck thats only now starting to fade and I pointed it out to Rem and Pads and umm Padfoot said that he was gonna wake you up because we need to talk about it and me and Moony just shouted at him no to not wake you up but ummm we kinda woke you up
sorry ". Peter says talking quickly "I-It-It's fine d-don't apologise " I manage to get out .I start to sweat while getting more and more nervous because I can't tell them why i have the bruise. 'God what do I say fuck fuck sh-' "How did you get that bruise Prongs ?" " Yeah how come you have a bruise?" My train of thought getting cut off by Remus and Sirius 'Shit what do I say fucking hell umm Merlin's beard what do I say fuck '. " Oh umm yeah day dreaming and walking down the stairs it's a deadly combination " I laugh as I say the last part. 'Merlin I hope that they believe me because if they don't then I'm screwed '.

Sirius's Pov

' another fucking lie what the hell is with him and lying today , shit do I call him out on it . Do I? Yes' "What the hell James why do you keep lying today like earlier you said you where doing work, all summer so you couldn't write back like that was a lie, so what else are you lying about Prongs?!" He looks at me then looks at the ground then back at me " I didn't lie Pads I ran out of parchment mid summer after I finished my work ,and my mum and dad are tight on money right now so they couldn't get me any.They barley had enough money to get me new books for school this year Pads my dads business is going to hell right now and my mum is unemployed because she got fired , so there that's why I couldn't write back ok I was going to but couldn't". He sounds really sad and I can tell that he's telling the truth . Then I hear a soft "oh" come from Moony. Rem feels bad I can tell.
"I'm so so sorry James, god I'm such an idoit for thinking you the worst of you " I say meaning every word I said .

James's Pov

"Yeah well it's fine sorry I hid that from you" what I had said wasn't a lie my mum is unemployed and my dad's business is going to hell right now but my parents aren't exactly tight on money well my dad is, my mum on the other hand is loaded though but she won't spend her money on me and my dad .For one my mum hates me constantly dead names me and misgenders me then for two the only reason she is still with my dad is because she know that she wouldn't be able to get custody of me."Well ok we should go and get changed " Moony states "Yep Merlin I can't wait for the feast"" Oh hell yeah I'm starving ".With that we grabbed our robes and went to change.

Tw: unsafe chest binding and suicidal thoughts :Tw ( please bind safely and my messages are always open if you need to talk also  'this will mean dark thoughts '   and ' this will mean his non suicidal thoughts ' )  

I walk into the changing room ( yes a changing room on a train because magic bitch ) and I start to strip off my grey and orange hoodie. Next goes my black top, and that's when I stop and stare in the mirror for a moment just staring at my chest that is being compressed with bandages and a bit of duct tape ' Merlin I really need to get a proper binder . Jesus why can't I just be normal? Or at least why can't my mum except the fact I'm trans and that I'm a boy'' because your not. Just shut up already your a little girl playing dress up just accept that. Your a girl. grow out your hair again,then mum will love you . Come on Jessica your a silly confused little girl. And if you can't expect that then just kill yourself . You have a wand and all you know the spell one word and it's all over.the pain will stop.then you won't have to worry about hiding the scars from them .' NO stop James don't you can't what about dad he would be so damn devastated I need to stay alive for my dad and for Remus Sirius and Peter'.

End of TW

I shut off my thoughts and swiftly get out of my jeans and put on my school clothes and my robes put my stuff back in my bag and head back to the train carriage. " what took you so long mate your usually first out " Padfoot some what complains " just ignore him prongs " Wormtail tells me I just nod and sit down.

Remus's Pov

I quietly close my book and stare out the window. 'Padfoot is right Prongs is hiding something I don't know what but I'm definitely going to find out. He's out of it plus he never takes that long changing. He's most-certainly withholding Something from us Merlin I need to find out what '

Xylo.B