Life Goes On

chapter fifteen

two month later 

The sound of the wheelchair pulling on the tiles sent a shiver down my spine, it was a sickening screech implying the floors had just been mopped. 

"Are you cold? Let me get a blanket for you." 

That's right, Kenma was pushing me. We just came back from a walk, well a ride for me and now we were going back to my room. Two months had passed as far as I can remember, I had minimal amounts of hair left and often wore a beanie whenever I wasn't sleeping. My memory worsened with each day, mom was never an issue but I often forgot why I was in hospital and who the doctors were. It would always come back to me eventually, but the look on moms face when I asked her what was wrong with me always seemed to break her heart.

 I looked a mess but I didn't care anymore, Kenma visited me almost every day and often brought his cooking experiments. I had to owe it to him but his cookies had improved tremendously since those rocks he made me eat last time, he said he practiced whenever he was home alone (which seemed pretty often.)

"Be honest mhm, you come to see me each day because your lonely without me" 

"Don't flatter yourself, I have nothing else to do so I might as well come here" I attempted a chuckle as the other teased me, one thing I was insanely grateful for was the lack of change Kenma had for me. It was difficult but he often acted as if I wasn't sick, just the normal hyperactive kuroo that always made fun of him. 

Kenma was currently in his volleyball outfit as he came here straight after practice, for the past couple of months he would always change in the bathroom to avoid upsetting me, but I caught him once, sneaking into the hospital in his uniform and coming back the toilets in a complete different outfit. As much as I appreciated his gesture I told him there was no need for that.

I often asked about the team, how were the guys doing, how do they feel with games coming up. Kenma would do his best to tell me about it whilst still being blunt as always, he really did have a habit of saying it how it was, no excitement or anything but what can I say. I liked that about him.

I let the setter tell the team about my condition, I didn't want them to think I just abandoned them especially when game season was coming up. They all wished me well and even visited me a few times around the first couple weeks when I was hospitalized. I asked that no one visited me except Kenma after that, well that's a lie, Kenma was being too stubborn for me to argue with and insisted he kept seeing me, I didn't want anyone to see me in this state but it never seemed to bother him.

"Ugh I cant stand our English professor" Kenma was currently sitting at the end of my bed with his computer out, trying to complete an assignment, I'd snooped through the work he had to do and can safely say I would of failed.

"slacker"

"Hey you're really calling a sick person a slacker" I nudged him with my foot and gave him a cheeky grin, refusing to offer any help to him not that I could of helped him in the first place.

"Isn't she the one with the motto life has no limit and neither does your vocabulary?" I could practically see the other cringe, scrunching is nose up and furrowing his brows.

"That's right, she mentions it every lesson, honestly at least think of a good motto"

"Do you have a motto Kenma?" 

He sat in silence for a second while putting on is thinking face, knowing him he'd come up with a 3 word one, or something so dry your face would shrivel.

"If I get into an argument, at least I know how to cuss in English." I practically burst out laughing at how idiotic that was, it was not exactly what I expected Kenma to say but at least it was more than three words.

"Please when are you ever going to need to cuss in English, they'll probably understand what your'e saying anyway" 

"oh really? cute bastard " I stared at him for a second while my mind remained blank, I dug myself into a hole this time forgetting I could barely get a word out in English let alone understand it. Kenma refused to tell me what he said so I got huffy with him, eventually he told me he'd get me ice cream if I stopped being moody and my mood changed drastically. 

"Do you have a motto Kuroo?"

I also took my time with this, I didn't want my motto to be something generic once said by some famous person, then again they could say just about anything and make it famous as long as people could relate to it, but that didn't mean it was meant for you. Kenma rolled his eyes at the time it took me and went back to his assignment, he'd been staying later recently which kind of concerned me. He brought his work here but shouldn't he be out with the team, or looking for a part time job (not that he needed one.) His whole life seemed to be revolving around me lately and as much as I liked him here besides me, he still had a life to live.

That's it! 

"Life goes on" 

Kenma looked up to me a little confused at my sudden outburst, I forgot it'd been like 10 minutes since he asked me the question.

"Its perfect, it may not have been said by someone famous, and maybe no one will feel comforted by it. But the only person I need it to comfort is standing right next to me"

"Life goes on. That's my motto"