Have you ever had a bad dream?
I was having one now, Kuroo was there, he was reaching out for me but I couldn't grab him. He was right in front of me but why couldn't I touch him, why was he getting further away?
I forced myself awake in a panic, clutching the sheets in search for my phone. I turned on the flash light to help me find the light switch, turning it on and spectating my surroundings. I was definitely at home but that nightmare felt so real I thought I was back at this hospital with kuroo.
Mini kuro climbed up onto my bed purring and in a pestering mood, it was 5 am so still too early to feed her but her persistence weakened me in the end. I picked her up and took her to the kitchen, my father hadn't been home in a week so he still didn't know about the cat. He isn't a bad dad, just too work consumed; he often sent me packages when he was abroad so I knew he thought about me.
I gave mini kuro his food before sitting down myself to attempt to eat porridge, I couldn't shake the anxiety that was filling my stomach, like I needed to be somewhere. I messages Kuroos mother to ask if I was still okay to visit Kuroo before cleaning up after my unusually early breakfast. Kuroo's words were constantly replaying in my mind like a broken record player, did he really mean it? Trust Kuroo to blurt something like that out so randomly and get me all worked up, I bet hes giddy with himself. It sounded like he meant it though, and the way he looked at me-
My brain hurts, I haven't had to do this much thinking since I found out there are three kind of there's to use in English language.
It was rather an un active morning, I kept my phone on loud so I knew when I was able to visit my friend, unfortunately Miss Tetsuro didn't seem to see the message yet. That stupid dream I had really shaken me up, I paced the house a couple of times before sitting down to play with mini kuro, his favorite toy was a feather attached to a stick, he'd often try to bite it but it just slip through his baby teeth. I took a picture so I could show Kuroo later on, maybe I should make a scrap book, I'm not very artsy but how hard can sticking a few pictures in a book be?
About an hour later my phone finally rang, I apologized to kuro before leaping up and running to answer it. I set a certain ring tone for both Kuroo and his Mom, along with the hospital number so I knew who was calling me, Kuroos mom normally set me a message but she was calling this time? Maybe kuroo wanted to speak to me, he's so impatient.
"Hello Miss Tetsuro"
"Miss Tetsuro? Are you there?"
A muffled sob came from the other end of the ling and my stomach sank, the familiar feeling of anxiety swarmed over me as I tried to get a response through the other end of the line.
Sometimes I wish I had never picked up the phone. I tell myself things might of been different if I had just let it rang, maybe if I had stayed that night at the hospital, would that have changed things?
Kuroo had a seizure last night, they said it was caused by organ failure and he-
h- he -
I didn't even bother with a coat or proper shoes as I fled from my house, running as quickly as I could along the familiar path to the hospital, I don't know what I was expecting when I got there but I ran even faster.
No way was this the end, it couldn't be, I never told kuroo those three words, I never showed him the photos I took of kuro playing with his toys, he never tried my new recipe of cookies, he never let me tell him how I really felt he-
He can't be gone, this is Kuroo we are talking about. He'll open up his eyes and form a cheeky grin, laughing at how he tricked everyone into believing he was really sick, that's the Kuroo I knew, that's the Kuroo I was about to see, just a couple more roads and i'll be there, i'll be-
"WATCH OUT!"
crash
YOU ARE READING
Life Goes On
Fanfiction"It may not have been said by someone famous, and maybe no one will feel comforted by it. But the only person I need it to comfort is standing right next to me"
