Thoughts of a stranger.

Stay strong

Three days post-operative

OLIVIA'S POINT OF VIEW.

It's been three days post op and Derek hasn't woken up. Mom, Anna and I have been taking turns to stay with Derek so we can all rest a little bit from being in the hospital. But honestly, I haven't slept at all, I feel like something bad is gonna happen while I'm away, and if he dies at least I wanna be there to say goodbye.

Right now, it's my turn to be with Derek, I usually just sit next to him and grab his hand. I talk to him too because I know he's listening.

-Your friends came to visit yesterday; Ava left some flowers for you.- I giggled. - That's so cute.

-I'm sorry Derek, I'm sorry for not being there for you, it's my fault that I let you become distant. I don't want to believe it's too late for us to form a bond. I love you so much, more than you will ever know. I've seen you grow up and I don't want to lose you, if I do, I'm seriously going crazy. You're the reason I wake up every day, I promised myself that I was going to make sure that you grew up happy and healthy, but I think I didn't keep my promise and now you're dying. Please Derek, please wake up, I can't lose you.- I cried

-I know you're fighting, Derek, you're so strong and I want you to know I'm beyond proud of you. No matter what you do you're my brother, and I'll always be here for you.- I laid my head on the bed and fell asleep holding his hand. I needed it. Anna came in a couple of hours after.

-Oh Liv, hi.- She said waking me up

-Hey, what did you do?

-I just went home and took a shower, I also brought you something to eat.

-Thank you.- I smiled at her and she handed me the bag.

Anna came up to the other side of Derek's bed and gave him a kiss on the forehead.

-I miss him so much.- She said.

-I know, I miss him too.

-Do you think he's gonna wake up?

- I hope he does, three days is still early considering the amount of damage he suffered, I guess we just gotta wait.

-Did he write a living will or something?

-No, I don't think he did. I guess that decision is on us if he doesn't wake up.

-He once told me that if something really bad happened to him and he depended on life support and extraordinary measures, he'll take them, and he wants to be resuscitated too. But if he's still depending on life support after a month, he wants to be disconnected.

-Just a month?

-Yeah, he said he'd rather die than being left in pain without even knowing if he's gonna wake up.

-Yeah, I get it, that would be my decision too.

-Same here.

We stayed there silently looking at Derek. I hope he isn't feeling any pain right now, he's sedated but I guess we'll never know what he's actually feeling.

-Hi ladies.- Doctor Shane entered the room with some residents, we greeted him back.

-We're just doing rounds, is there any problem if we do it with Derek?

-No, not at all.- I said and he nodded.

-Jackson, present.

-Derek Johnson, 17. Suffered a venous epidural hematoma in the temporal region, was found unconscious on the scene, gained brief consciousness while in the hospital. A craniotomy was performed to evacuate the bleeding, it's been three days post-operative and is still unconscious. Also, he suffered a hemothorax due to a broken rib puncturing the aorta, Doctor Roosevelt performed an open thoracostomy and an aortic transection, he successfully repaired the tear.