5SOS Preferences

#3 Amnesia - 5SOS (Song Reference)

A/N - These are All his POV

Michael - If what we Had was Real, How could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all

I miss (Y/N) With all my heart. I'm a mess Without her. I Miss her hugs, Kisses, and her telling me everything will be fine in the end. I Took her for granted. It's true when they say you don't know what you have until it's gone. The boys have been telling me I will move on,  But it sure doesn't feel like it. I've found myself in a place where I'm stalking through her social media. She won't accept my Facebook friend request anymore. She Unfollowed me on Twitter and Instagram. But I will keep trying. I found myself coming across pictures of her at a club. She's with some attractive guys, Even I'll admit that. She's smiling in a way she used to smile with me before I fucked up. She's giggling in the pictures, and the guy has his hand on her butt. I Would of smashed his face if I saw him do it, Though I shouldn't think like that, My jealousy is what got me here in the first place. I Tortured myself looking through these pictures. I googled her name, to see the articles, and I came across an Interview with her in. The interviewer Is asking her all these questions, on many different things. One question stood out the most though. "So how have things been after your Break up with Michael?" Her face dropped when I Was mentioned. She hesitated with answering at first, then answered with no emotions, "I'm happier than I've been in a long time..." I felt my heart shatter in my chest. I couldn't help but cry. I couldn't help but punch my fist against the wall. I couldn't Help but compare it to my interview, when I was asked the same question to Which I replied "I'm not fine at all." She was happy. I remember when I was the reason that made her happy. It hurts that I have to say that in the past tense.

Calum - I Drove By All The Places we used to hang out getting wasted.

I Needed to clear my head. It's been four months since me and (Y/N) Broke up, And I'm trying to convince myself I'm over her. I've been on a few dates since, But none have compared to her. I'm taking the ultimate test today though. I'm driving to Our spot. Its where I asked her to be my girlfriend. We have so many memories there, Which unfortunately I can't erase, though that would make everything easier. I'm currently driving there, A million memories rushing through my head. The time we Hung out there, Talking about our future. The time we had Sex in my car up there. The time We hung out there with the boys and got Completely wasted. The time we made out to Green Day. It all came flashing back. As I pulled up to the point, I froze. I wasn't sure if I was seeing things or not. There she was. She was sitting there on our bench, But she wasn't alone. She was with another guy. She had her head on his shoulder. She looked happy. I sat in my car and watched them for a bit. I felt myself breaking. I Was definitely not over her. God dammit, Not even close. She now turned to this guy and kissed him. She was smiling so much, She was so happy. I Want her back now, In my arms, But I knew I couldn't. I probably never would again. I drove away, Not wanting to look back on the Life I could of had.

Luke - The Pictures That You sent me they're still living in my phone, I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone

Me and (Y/N) Broke Up 6 Months ago. It ended Very  messy. She cheated on me. Though I love her with all my heart, I knew there was no trust. I was hoping that the tour would take my mind off things. We'd been on it for four months, Though I would smile,  It was like I Was smiling through smashing my face in broken glass. I laid in my bunk alone. Before we broke up, she was meant to come on tour with us. I guess that hurt. I went through the pictures of us on my phone. I still didn't have the strength to delete them. It was like fully moving on, and I wasn't ready for that. I smiled looking through them. There was a picture of us when we Visited London and we both pouted because we were cute like that. Everyone on twitter thought we was cute. I smiled, Looking at all the memories. The time we slept over at Mikeys, The time I kept taking mug shots of her to annoy her. Us Kissing. This one hurt. It had been my lockscreen since the day we took it. That was two years of it being my lockscreen, Me seeing it every time I looked at my phone. I continued scrolling. I found our valentines day pictures, Where she looked stunning in her Black dress. I smirked to myself as I found her Private Pictures she had sent me. She was so beautiful. Without realizing it, I Started crying to myself. I didn't realize until Michael pulled back my bunk curtain, and put his hand on my shoulder. He knew why I was crying. He saw my phone. "Luke, It's time you deleted the pictures, It's not healthy for you to have them on there." I stared at him, Knowing it was the truth, but it hurt. He slowly took my phone, And selected the "Me and (Y/N)" Folder I had on my phone. He looked me in the eye as he pressed the delete button. Part of me wanted to hug him and thank him. The other part wanted to punch him in the face. But instead I just sat there, Realizing he has closed a chapter of my life for me. Something I would never get back.

Ashton - If the day I woke up with you right beside me, Like all of this was just some twisted dream, I'd hold you closer than I ever did before.

She was dead. This was so surreal. I Stared at her beautiful pale face. It all happened so fast. I remember arguing with her, Her telling me she couldn't do it anymore, and running out the door. I Called her some bad things, I wish I could rewind. (Y/N) Is None of that! For fuck sake Ashton, Why did you say it? Now she's gone. The doctors told me she pretty much died instantly. But even now, As I lay crying into Luke's shoulder, I know She didn't die of An Overdose, She died of a broken heart. I told her she was worthless. I told her she meant nothing to me. I have no idea why I did, But I know I take it back. I can't even remember why we were arguing, but I know for sure it wasn't worth it. Luke kept comforting me, With stupid little phrases. He doesn't know what its like. I Felt everything twisting around me. I could see her beautiful Face. I heard her saying my name. "Ashton, Ashton, ASHTON!" I heard her shout. I Bolted upright, To see myself in my bed. I Was next to (Y/N). She was Alive! "Baby, Are you OK?" She asked frantically. I couldn't help but stare at her, taking in every single beautiful detail of her. I pulled her in close to me. "I love you so, so much (Y/N), Never forget that," I said choking up. She squeezed me back, kissing my shoulder. "Tell me about your nightmare," She whispered. She knew me very well. We sat up all night talking about it. That's when I realized I really was in-love with (Y/N).  I wanted her to be my wife. I want her to be the mother of my children. I just wanted her, Nothing else.

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