A Coffee Kiss

One more Broken Memory

She has text me countless times and I've missed more calls than minutes in the day. Jami took me for a drive as I knew she would be waiting at my house.

All the time we were together couldn't have been for nothing, she was my best friend. I dont want no more late night texts, no more drives down lanes with unknown endings or bare footed walks along the beach. I want timeless i just want one more of everything, one more ever lasting kiss and one more promise of the two of us together, just one more always and one more forever. but I promised myself . One more try and if that doesnt work, I get one more heartbreak. One more time to heal... This is my one more.

We were finally driving back towards the flat so I could hibernate in my tears and cuddle up to cookie dough.Not ot my suprise she was sat on the front step of the house. I got out of the car and tried to just avoid her. She said my name and tried to hold me, while I kept my head down and walked straight into through the front door and into my room. I turned off my phone. I dont think i actually touched it for the next two weeks and I know I didnt leave bed. This time wasn't like the rest I was so emotional but found myself feeling so dumb, she was engaged! and it wasn't to me. Even though she promised her heart to someone else without fail everyday she would sit at the door step asking to see me and always leaving a single yellow tulip, saying about a mix up and how she will always wait.

After my two weeks I still wasnt ready to see photos of her with her new lover and the endless messages so I left my phone untouched in a corner of my room. But  decided to go out with Jami and some friends. We had some drinks in a bar and I started to feel so much better, not from the alchol, although that did help, but i started to feel better with all my friends around me and how everything was going to be okay even though the only person I wanted to see wasn't there. I'd find myself stairing into my empty glass and think about Kaelyn.

The last time I was at this bar was also the first time I met Kaelyns friends, we walked through and she held my hand so close to her and so tight smiling at me as she introduced me to her friends and just hearing them say ' she never shuts up about you ' made me so happy and trusting in her. We danced with her friends and she would spin and hold me showing me off like a prize with so much pride. The months that turned into years and now she would have them same moments with her new girl  from this moment on. Sat at a table with so many people but feeling so alone. My puzzle not fitting together anymore. I decided to fake tierd to go home as they were going to go onto night clubs.

It was a nice evening for a walk, so I took a slow strole, the air was mild and warm as my arms swayed. I ended up finding myself outside Kaelyns house just wanting an explanation and a final a goodbye so i could try and sleep without reaching out to put my arm around her, her side hasn't been touched. The pillow lay next to mine with the same imprint where her head should be.

I opened the gate to her front garden and walked up the stairs to her front door and with three deep breaths I knocked.

*Knock,Knock...*

'Are you Kaelyns' new girlfriends?'