We all grow up, gaining our confidence and adding onto experiences that determine how we view the world. We go through peculiar and absurd realizations, winning and losing battles.
But growing is a part of who we are. I grew up always being called these names like, "weird," or, "odd," ridiculed for how I think and act. I still didn't listen to these words and continued my expeditions and journeys. I was spontaneous, genuine happiness flooded me. I was funny, my talents were unique, I laughed with people, until I realized they laughed at me.
I'm afraid after years of my ideas and excitement being thumbed-down and succumbed into feelings of failure, I lost my sparkle. I became a timid person, lost my captivation. My talents became less discernible and fascinating, I was so afraid of being different.
But now, I realize, I became the person I dreaded to become. I became boring. Too ordinary. Nothing special.
Until well, now. Now I've started the journey of doing what I most love. I will gain my wit, that inspired my endeavors and deepest desires. I will become who I want to be. My mind and heart will grow, even if it means to let go of those ridiculed thoughts that overtake my soul.
Captivating.
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Alrighty, well what do you think? I know this could be considered cliche and basic, but my whole life, I've been called names, and I've now realized that I'm much more than what other people think of me.
I think you are, too. You're captivating, literally. You're reading some thoughts from a girl who has constantly questioned herself, and you still stay to understand how she thinks. That's what's captivating about you, you stay even when another is in question. Thank you, truly for that :)
Writing this was a bit tough, I didn't know how to exactly word my thoughts in an expressive and understanding way. Hopefully you understand the message I'm trying to say. If you want a little thought or poem written about you, definitely message me, and I'll write something for your kind soul! Bye angels :))
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PoetryA few poems and some little ditties. A few of these can hit you hard with a fierce realization, while others play along, quietly in the back of your wonderous mind. I hope you enjoy these, they're very dear thoughts and certain realizations that I'...
