Back and forth|Jxdn

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I slammed the car door and walked towards the front door of the house. I somehow figured out what I'm gonna do about the whole situation. I've never in my life liked the idea of leaving the problem, I should either accept it or change it. So leaving my problems be was not even an option, especially when having an ass subconscious voice who keeps on nagging you to do some shit that will waste your time. Just like leaving something incomplete, that shit literally KILLS me. I was so pathetic to the point of not letting what happened pull me away from the ones I love, even if i will eventually get hurt.

I unlocked the door and walked inside, throwing my keys in the plate next to the door on the table. I walked slowly into the living room to see abby and Adam sitting on the couch with an approximately two feet away from each, arms folded over their chest and they just looked so mad that i got really scared. I walked slightly towards them as their heads snapped at me. Adam sent me a death glare that burned it's way into my core, abby on the other hand just looked worried? I don't know by now but all i know is that im screwed.

"Where were you?" Adam whispered softly, way too soft that it really matched the saying 'the silence before the storm' it really made my stomach flip.

"I- I went to rosa's" I sighed defeatedly.

"Why weren't you answering my calls Emily?" That was abby and it was close to shout but still in a normal tone.

"I turned my phone off" I whispered sheepishly pointing my eyes at my feet, I couldn't have eye contact with any of these two, not right now.

"And why would you do that?" Adam raised his voice all of a sudden, I flinched a bit at the sudden change of the tone.

I knew it! This is not ending well.

"I wanted some alone time" i said coldly, i already fucking told them about how i feel when someone yells at me and he still does that shit.

"Can't you have that without turning off your damn phone?!" He yelled.

"First off DO NOT yell at me! Second no I can't okay?!" I yelled back. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and switched it on as adam was burning holes through my skull by that glare of his.

"I will yell when it comes to your safety! You could have at least texted me or something!"

"As if you care! Im not a fucking child and I can go wherever I want whenever i fucking want okay?! Stop making such a big deal out of it and leave me alone!" I yelled back as i held burning tears that were threatening to fall. His face feel from what i said at first, i send him one last glare and stomped up to my room. I slammed the door shut and locked it because I don't want anyone barging in without permission. People didn't seem to have any kind of respect towards my privacy, they all think they somehow own me and that I always need to make stupid excuses to get away with whatever i do, for god's sake im 18! Is that really hard to understand by now?

They all just treat me like a fucking child because whatever happened in the past and they don't seem to get the fact that past is past in their damned thick shit of a head. I just felt anger raise in my skin and my blood boiling like hot water. I clenched my fists so hard that I almost bleed my palms from the strong dig of my nails. Hot tears running down my face and that's it, i lost it.

I relaxed my hand that was already bleeding by now and just sobbed for 2 hours by now.I just feel so numb. My emotions keep on bottling up and i always try to push them away but they always tend to come back to get out the worst in me. As I walked to the bathroom there was a soft knock on the door, if I wasn't so focused on the silence surrounding me I wouldn't have heard it. I walked slowly towards the door trying to wipe the already dried up tears off my face with the back of my hand.