𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐕𝐄; 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐞𝐧

PROLOUGE.

lowercase intended.
2015 words.
TW; homophobic/transphobic slurs, self harm references. 

     noen eubanks was 16 years old, with a love for being babied. he loved being babied with his entire heart, he loved the idea of being hugged and kissed and told that he's loved 24/7. noen was clingy. he was extremely clingy. that was one of the main reason no one wanted him. 

     his entire life, noen was bullied. not for his love of babying, but for his gender and sexuality. noen did identify as bisexual, but his biggest issue with people was how he identified his gender. noen was originally born a female, and did hold the female genitalia. before he decided to transition, he was called a 'fake female' for being infertile. now that he's transitioned, he's called a tr*nny. he never understood what it meant to be infertile, but he knew it was a bad thing. 

     but his sexuality and gender identity weren't the only things getting him bullied. people bullied him for his baby-like voice, and how he couldn't get into and argument without getting scared. he cried when he was yelled at, and his heart broke very easily. 

     his parents did his best to keep him from the gruesomeness of the world. they did their best to keep their baby boy happy, and to keep him from being scared. that's where the babying takes place. noen's mommy always babied him, since he was little noen was always getting everything he wanted. his mom didn't agree to how she always gave into him, but she did always defend her son. did i mention his parents are lesbians?-

     that's where noen got his femininity from. his mom, kelly, always did her best to keep him comfortable in his skin. she knew he was a boy since his 4th birthday, when he picked out his favorite toys from the boys section of target. meanwhile his mommy, milan, always tried to get him to show his femininity. she knew noen wanted to be a boy, but he loved to wear dresses and play with dolls. they both eventually came to terms with their baby's choice in changing his gender, but still allowed him to be as feminine as he wanted. 

     noen was born six months before kelly realized she was a lesbian. she immediately split from his homophobic father and remarried milan a year later. even though noen wasn't her biological son, she still loved him like he was. 

    noen has always been confused to his ethnicity. milan was fresh from japan, but kelly was mixed with italian and german. would he identify as white? or some kind of color? they both are his parents and he's highly exposed to both cultures. he never bothered to ask, he always just said he was a mix of a few different ethnicities.  

     after transitioning noen had an extremely hard time finding love. any time he thought he found the perfect boy or girl for him, he told him he was trans and- lets just say the person would rudely leave. noen eventually stop looking for a relationship and tried to get him grades up. he was given a tutor by the name of ryland storms- who is now his best friend in the entire universe. 

     ryland was noen's lord and savior. ryland saved him from his bullies, and bought him gifts. ryland always put a smile on noen's face. he knew noen was going through. he knew noen felt unloved and unwanted, and he wanted to change that. ryland knew all noen needed was some love from someone other then his moms. it may not be romantically, but ryland still did his best for noen.

    noen's world was different from our world. everything in noen's little world was rainbows and stuffies. life in noen's mind was this big cartoon of love and affection. the bullying was just a challenge being thrown in his way. he tried his best to smile even when he was sad, to breed his own positivity to its length. 

     but on a more negative note, this caused him to be extremely unaware. noen was a virgin, and was clueless about reproduction. he didn't know about sex or how children were made, and plenty of other things. he was never aware of abuse, or racism, or why everyone was so nasty to him over his sexuality and gender identity. noen was so in denial about life, but nobody wanted to educate him. they were scared to even try. they didn't want to ruin his innocence.