the night went by .. he woke up eventually
Xavier: well well
chris: huh man ..
Xavier: am i surprised no i get it your hurt you feel bad ya know .. but alondra was worried you were suppose to go home with diapers and formula for your son? remember him? yea i found you passed so i took her everything and extra she needed i stayed to help her cuz shes pregnant ya know with your daughter?
chris: you font need to remind me ok i know
xavier: i feel like i have to remind you because you pulled a bitch ass move she needed you you son and daughter needed you to and look at what you did on the first day home
chris: i dont know if i can do this ..
xavier: you got no choice dad didn't raise no dead beats your emotions matter yea but your families first .. im sorry this shits happening to you it ain't fair elena was a homegirl that had so much to live for buy you know better you know what you have to do
chris: yea i know .. its gonna be a struggle im gonna try my best .. the best i can cuz my minds all fucked up it should've been me not her he needs his mom more than me .. they all would've been better off without me .. i would trade places if i could for him to have a mother ..
while Chris got himself together
reina: shes a natural
Marcos: oo yea shes always been very motherly i swear haha .. mija i have to go pick up your sisters from practice ill bring some food later
alondra: thank you hug them tight for me
he hugged her and kissed sauls head
marcos: be good for your mommy muñeco .. and you tell Chris ill see him later to be safe working
she nodded
he left
reina: i love that he accepted him as is own i love that you even signed
dalondra; even if i didn't sign i would've done everything for him and my dad he has his moments but he's all love he's happy to be a grandpa haha
she nodded
reina: yea .. but thank you for not telling him where Chris is when he asked
she nodded as she put down saul in his bassinet and went to wash some bottles
reina: mija i swear ill
alondra: no dont yell or lecture him he has to want to do this he's hurting he doesn't know how to talk about how he's feeling yea but huh .. dont ok im going to do my all for him im thankful for you and the family and mine
reina: do you think he'll get better?
alondra: i can only hope so .. im not going to give up on him im gonna do my best though
reina: im here for anything I am .. i love you your like a daughter to me your mother wasmy best friend .. and i know shes proud of you just as much as i am
she dried her hands and hugged her
the afternoon passed .. he got home late that night
he walked in to her laying back and saul sleeping
chris: hey
she got up and hugged him
chris: im sorry .. I am
alondra: im just glad your home safe chris
she stepped back and went to the babies room .. he followed her
chris: no i need you tell me shit be mad cuz
she turned to him
alondra: so you can leave again? no im not mad im disappointed but i get it .. im not gonna go off on you .. now start setting up the heavy things i couldn't do everything
chris: why build it
alondra: Chris i will smack the shit outta you ok just fucking build it
chris: no i mean why build it to take it down we're moving
alondra: where?! huh
chris: we cant stay in such a small place and i feel like we should be close with family
alondra: what did you do?
chris: its a rent to buy .. on my parents block big enough for us a yard to .. closer to your dads?
alondra; Chris
chris: what?
alondra: i love you and im proud of you for making this move but you dont think im scared to move in after what you did last night?
chris: so you are gonna trip on it
the baby monitor went off
alondra: your turn im gonna shower for once my feet are swollen and your daughter is punching my bladder
she walked away as sauls crys got louder
chris: fuck huh
he walked into there room and picked him up .. he checked his diadper and went to make a bottle
chris: im sorry mijo .. im doing my best i promise
he sat down and fed him as she walked out
alondra: i hate you
chris: what?
alondra: not like that haha i mean its not fair that you just hug him and give him his bottle and he's out he fights me then passes out its your big ass arms
he nodded and looked down
alondra: im not trippen either im scared ok i love you i want us to live together but Chris i was scared last night mad you did that to saul and genesis?
chris: im sorry I am i promise to do better i do i have to i wont be a deadbeat .. how can i leave this lil one and her
he put his free hand on her belly
alondra: i love you .. but talk to me ok if we're really doing this
chris: i love you to .. and your down?
alonda: yea im down haha less squished i was getting anxiety with so many things i have 2 cribs
he got himself up and hugged her
chris: i got you a house babe they'll be enough space
seeing his smile made her think maybe everything would be ok .. it made her nerves go away ..
as the days went by he had them moved into a new place
OG: hows he been?
alondra: still drinking but at least at home .. im on leave so saul has me and everyone's helping
OG: you want me to talk to him?
alondra: no ill talk to him once we're settled
OG: well you know im a call away mija keep your head up
alondra: always OG
he left ..
chris: dam he didn't even say bye shit
alondra: your plastered look at you he didn't wanna bother either .. but are you like this because the funerals today? i know its not cuz your tired cuz im the one that's been up with saul
he went quiet
alondra: what i tell you haw
chris: i know but .. its a pain babe a pain that i cant shut up shit keeps fucking with me .. everytime i see him and spend time with him i see her then it hits me shes gone and it fucks me all over again .. the drinking numbs the pain ok at least i ain't leaving im here right?
she sighed and nodded
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Jasper {Completed}
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