Lost and Found - HIATUS

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"You... proposed to me?" Serkan asks, shocked. He snorts with the thought of that moment. How did he react? Did she really propose to him? Did her grandmother end up letting them get married? Suddenly he was too interested in how this whole thing unfolded. What she was telling him felt completely unreal to him, how did he change so much? And was that change good or bad? But I guess he wouldn't know just yet, cause when Eda realized what she said, she quickly got up, scared. Maybe she told him too soon, maybe she was forcing him too much. "It's not your Serkan, Eda", her mind kept telling you that. She grabbed the tray and made her way to the kitchen for a brief moment. "Evet, that was it. Hope it was helpful to you", she seemed to be rushing them out of her house. They didn't have opportunity to exchange another word cause Ayfer arrived at that very moment, surprised with the unexpected guests. "Serkan bey...", the woman greets him. His confused expression had said it all, and Ayfer quickly introduced herself as Eda's aunt. "Welcome", Ayfer says motioning for them to sit. The woman, that was holding groceries, felt her arms lighter as she perceived Eda get the bags from her. "Don't worry hala, they were just leaving", Eda says walking to the kitchen, pretending to be distracted with the groceries and silently begging them to go. They have seemed to understand her message, cause they quickly said their goodbyes to Eda and Ayfer (and Melo on the yard) and left. Just when they got on the car was when Serkan realized something: the woman of one of her flashes was Ayfer hanim.

Serkan got home emotionally exhausted. Engin had offered to stay over with him, they were still too protective with Serkan for reasons the man didn't understand. He never liked closeness. And right now, everybody was too close. His mom, Engin, Piril, Eda... He needs some water. He barely steps inside the kitchen and his mind flicks again. It was quick but it marked him, he felt the pain in his heart. Eda's eyes red of crying, still with tears rolling down her cheeks, then she leaves dodging any attempt of him to hold her back. He has to lean on the counter for support because he feels dizzy and sees his eyesight gets darker. He leans there for a moment, and when he feels he's gained his senses back, he grabs the recently-poured glass of water and walks to the couch. After a couple of sips, he lays on the couch, feeling the tiredness on his bones, perhaps even on his soul. He felt his body relaxing at every second in, his subconscious praying he wouldn't have any disturbances on his sleep. But he did. It wasn't a dream, though. It was a flick. He's back home, at his old house. He is so happy, he doesn't know why but his heart is filled with comfort and joy. Alptekin appears on his sight. His father seemed to want to talk to him about something important. He hesitantly goes. Image jumps a little more, he's still at his house. But his feelings were different, they were the complete opposite of what he was feeling at first. This time he was heartbroken, the heartbreak that resulted in actual physical pain. He felt he was crying, in tears, he was angry, furious at someone. So furious broke the glass table in front of him. Image jumps to a complete different scenario, and it doesn't take long to recognize his own penthouse. He's following her downstairs, she was pissed off at something. He stops her, Eda. They were fighting, an ugly fight. She hurts her hand. "Eda, I have something to tell you," he recognizes his own voice telling her that. But someone interrupts them. He sees Selin storming into his house, saying she found out about what he's been hiding. About Eda's parents' accident.
Serkan jumps on his bed. He tries to get his mind together, he always wakes up a mess after these dreams. Or flicks in form of dreams. As he's trying to get back to himself, he realizes he knows something more. Something he was sure it wasn't shown on the flicks before. Could his mind finally be starting to connect the pieces and bring back the full memories? Or else, how would he know the reason he tried to hide the accident from Eda? How would he feel inside his being such a bittersweet feeling, the same feeling of letting the love of your life go because you think it was better for them? How would he know that his heart shattered in a thousand pieces watching her break down at his house, confronting his dad? How would he remember her cold "I don't believe you" when he said he was scared of losing her? He felt his heart race, not quite understanding some feelings inside of him. Yet.

A/N: Getting to the eeeeend... don't kill me! I'm trying to write the best way I can despite the bang I got from the episode. Hope you guys like it! Thanks for reading!