Love at first catch

Letter to Bryan!

Dear Bryan.

When you read this I'm gone!

I write this letter to you because I want to try and explain what I'm feeling and what is going on in my head, I have to write it because I can't face you at the moment to be honest, I'm afraid I will break down in tears in front of you, even though that it is already happening as I'm writing this.

I feel like you have changed since we got Lina, you are never home and I feel like you put a distance between us, you never kiss me anymore or cuddle me, every time you come home you quickly head for the shower and leave me there without a word, not even a Hi or how was your day? when you sleep you lay with your back to me instead of pulling me in to you as you used to. I honestly don't know what to do anymore, I'm hurting so much and I'm so confused Bryan and I have been for weeks, but you never noticed it because you were so busy.

And then to top It off, the other day while I was doing laundry, I heard some of you "girlfriends" talk about me and you, that it was obviously that you where with them instead of an ugly potato sack like me. I mean I don't blame you to be honest, I'm not pretty, sexy or a skinny model like them, so of course you want them and not me.

I feel so useless and not worthy of you or your love, I don't what is going in on with you? You are constantly on your phone, keeping secrets from me, and you changed the password for it so I can't see it. So I'm guessing you have an affair with someone and don't want me to know.

I feel like I'm just in your way and holding you down and you just have to know I won't do that anymore, I really love you so much and I can't imagine my life without you, but you seem so unhappy with me, so that is why I have to let you go, go be free, live your life and enjoy it, be happy and find the love you want. I'm taking Lina with me because I still have to breast feed her, but as time comes and she's getting older you can get to see her, I won't stop you from that, you still are her father after all. And maybe at some point we will get to talk again, but for now I'm leaving you and don't worry we got a safe place to stay.

Take care

I'll always love you

Forever and always

Yours truly Lulu