Love at first catch

Going away and Holidays!

There were only 3 days until christmas, my apartment was decked with lightings, ornaments, flowers, candles and of course a tree. I sat in the kitchen when i heard a soft knock at the door, outside stood Bryan. He looked sad and liked he had cried, i invited him in and hugged him "what's wrong?" asked gently as i was still hugging him, he let out a big sigh and took a deep breath as he pulled away from me looking me deep in the eyes "let's go sit down" he said pulling me into the living room and we sat down on the couch, i looked confused at him. He took a deep breath again "I have to leave for a little bit of time" he started and looked down at the floor, "of course you have to, its christmas soon and then New Years eve, and you have to be with your family, i totally understand" i answered. "i have to be with my family aswell but we will soon see each other again" i said trying to cheer him up, but he kept looking at the floor and had his hands on his legs. "No i have to go away, like travel with a plane, away" he whispered like he almost didn't want me to hear it. I looked at him with widened eyes "for how long?" i asked, "i don't know, maybe a couple of months, maybe a year or longer" i could hear his voice shaking and tears started to run down his cheeks as he looked over at me. I sat there stunned and couldn't say anything, i took a deep breath "how long did you knew this? i mean it sounds like it had been planned over a long time since it involves you being away for that long" i said a bit hurt. He turned around to face me and trying to take my hands but i pulled them away and stood up looking down at him and i could feel the sadness in my heart, the tears started too fill my eyes and my body started to shake. Before i knew it i ran in to the bedroom locking the door behind me and my back was sliding down against it as i started to collaps and cry, i heard a faint knocking at the door "Princess open up and let me explain" he said with sadness in his voice, "NO BRYAN GO AWAY" i yelled, after a minute or so i heard a bump againt the door, i could hear him cry on the otherside. "i love you princess, i really do, i don't want to lose you and i really don't want to hurt you" he said with a sad voice. There we were, two lovers on each side off the door with our backs against the door and we were both crying and heartbroken. It felt like we sat there forever, i looked up from my knees and thought "why was i so upset? he didn't ask me directly to be his girlfriend or anything, so technically i didn't own him or anything like that, so he could do whatever i he wanted" i whispered to myself. I got off the floor and went to the bathroom to be cleaned up and i went over to open the bedroom door, but he was gone. I thought to my self "its better this way". Sure i was going to miss him like hell and our silly tea dates on firescape outside my livingroom window while looking at the stars and talking about anything and everything, but he never promised anything subtle at all.

3 Days passed and it's finally christmas eve, im walking around in the appartment setting the table and putting the gifts under the tree and making the food, just to kill time until my parents and my sister was coming to dinner and celebrate a little of the evening with me before they had to travel home to the rest of the family for a reunion. Finally i hear a knock on the door and i rush to open it, outside in the i see a man i haven't met before "Lulu?" he askes, "yes that is me" i answered, "i got this delivery for you" he pulled out a small cardboardbox, i took it and closed the door. I kept looking at the box and was confused, "who would send me a gift with no name on?" i said to myself. I went in to the livingroom sat down and thought "its my parents that's probably making a joke or a prank on me" after a few minutes i opened the cardboard box and out fell a lot of little red heart confetti, a letter and a black jewelry box, now i was more confused then ever. I took a deep breath and took the letter up, there was writing on the envelope "read me before open the little black box", wait i knew this handwriting, it was his, my heart sank and it started beating fast. why was he doing this? i was finally at peace with what had happend between us and tried to move on, but now i went straight back in it all again. I sat back in the corner of the couch taking some deep breaths to slow down my fast pounding heart, i took the envelope and opened it and took out the letter. "i cant do this, not now" i said to myself, "my family will be here anytime soon, and i want to be my best self when they are here, they will know something is wrong. And i wan't my first christmas in this appartment to be a success", i put the letter back in the envelope and put the letter, black box and confetti back in the bigger box and put it on my bed saving it for later.

20 min later i hear knocking on my door and i opened it to see my parents and my sister outside in the hallway, i let them in and as i am about to close the door i see Bryan walking by with his suitcase heading for the elevator, our eyes briefly meets and i get a mixed feeling of butterflies and knots i my stomach. He just smiled and i could see the sadness all over his face and in his eyes, they were dark and red from missing sleep and crying. I closed the door before anything else could happen, and i walked in to have lovely time with my family for dinner, after like an hour we started opening presents and i got some cloth, new shoes and a plane ticket of my choice. I looked at my parents and my dad said "you always talked about taking some time off and that you wanted to see the world, well here is the start", i looked and smiled and then went over to hug them. After a couple of hours they left and i was all alone in the place, i started to clean up after the dinner and when i was done i headed for the bedroom to change into my pj's, and then i saw the box again on the bed, i took in to the couch and opened it again, i hear some noise outside my door and go up and opened it and a big bouquet of lillies and roses there, i smiled and took them up and put them in a vase. I sat down in the couch crawling in to the corner as i took the letter out again and took a deep breath.