illusions

My Time

I was thinking that I should wait for my time. 

I thought, there will be any light came to me in the dark.

I probably was hallucinating.

Thought you might be an escape from my darkest reality. 

But the truth is, there is no way out of this. 

I'm slowly raising my hands, but it keeps on hanging because no one holds on to them.

I was thinking you are the perfect one for me, 

The one that shines so bright... So pretty. 

And yet, too pretty to me.

I decided not to give my hands to anyone. 

I think I need to start to give my hands to myself. 

So I know, I can feel whenever I'm hugging myself.

When it says not to be scared when my self drowning all alone in the dark. 

At least, I got me. Even I know I'm drowning and suffering -- I got me. 

Perhaps, the bright was never the brightest idea for me?

Instead, the one who always stays in the dark with me ... should I keep you win? 

Feb 1st 2021 12:57 AM (GMT +5)