I'm all yours (l.s. au)

8. He was just having a rough day

Louis knew he was in a fucked up situation. He nearly said 'I love you' yesterday. The feeling he doesn't wanna feel. He just can't. Last time he let himself fall in love, ended really badly. So he just couldn't. He would only get hurt again. He could've lost all of this yesterday, if he would have let the three words slip. But he didn't, so he still has his beautiful angel in his arms, cuddled up against him and sleeping peacefully. And that made Louis fall in love even harder. And that was a problem. He knew, being close to Harry would make things worse. He needed to change that. He can't let these feelings come through.

So the first thing, he could do, is move out of Harry's arms, to get ready. If he would leave for work really early, he could easily avoid Harry in the morning. So he hurried up and was ready to leave for work only half an hour later.

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When Harry woke up from his alarm, to go to work, he realised, Louis was missing. Which was weird, considering they usually had to leave the house at the same time. But Harry did not think much of it, and just got ready.

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Harry was already home, when Louis came back from work. That was normal. What wasn't normal, is that Louis only gave Harry a quick 'hello' and a small smile, before disappearing into his bedroom. Harry went to check on Louis, because he was worried for him. Why would he be so distant? "Daddy? Can I come in?", Harry said, knocking at the door. When there was no answer, Harry decided to just go in, taking the silence as a yes. "I did not say you can come in, did I?" And Harry seemed to be wrong with his assumption. Because right now Louis seemed actually mad, that Harry invaded his alone time. "Sorry, I just thought.. well you didn't answer so.."
"Harry, please get out. Why can't you do simple things? Do you ever listen?!", Louis yelled. Harry flinched away, leaving the room, and letting his tears fall down. He hated getting yelled at and Louis really scared the younger boy. Harry tried to brush it off, because this has never happened with Louis. So he was probably just having a rough day.

While Harry decided, it was best to start dinner, because Louis would most likely not come out of his room, the older boy was busy crying his eyes out. He didn't want to hurt Harry. He loves him. But he can't have that. He needs to stop his feelings, before they get worse. But it's hard, because Harry's smell is everywhere, his clothes are scattered around the apartment, there is the paper of his favourite gummy bears laying around and all in all, everywhere was Harry.

"Food is ready", Harry called from the kitchen. He cooked Louis favourite food, hoping it would bring the older boy some joy. But he did not even seem to acknowledge anything because he just grabbed a plate, mumbled a 'thanks', while looking at the ground. And then he retrieved into his room. He was just having a rough day. That's what Harry told himself.

It was in the middle of the night already, but Harry could not sleep. It was the first time after weeks, that he had to sleep alone, in his own room again. And it hurt him. Because he loves Louis. And he hates the distance, Louis put between the two, today. He needed Louis body heat, his affection, love, and attention. He needed Louis. But the dom seemed to be slipping away from the curly haired lad. Maybe he found out about Harry's feelings, and that's why he is acting weird.. Oh god, that would be Harry's worst nightmare. No. Of course that's not what's going on. He was just having a rough day. And eventually, Harry could also find sleep.

Louis couldn't. Thinking about how he's hurt Harry today, makes his heart clench. All he wants is being with Harry, so pushing him away, was one of the hardest things, Louis could've done. But he can't have those feelings. Those stupid, strong feelings.