maybe i am alive but who knows yuh lmao
not me venting my frustration and stress on poor eva again
the poor boy needs i break i must spread the angst eQuaLLy like jam on bread yk
i need an eva in my life which is extremely ironic as eva is based off one of my closest friends irl and entangled with,,, my problems so whaddaya know :fingerguns:
i need more soft boy ocs pls i need a xie lian </3
i just need more ocs in general dont i
if i could vocalise this you would hear a very, very long sigh right now
maybe quarantine is finally getting to me. i feel rather exhausted. social media makes me feel uncomfortable. that's a great sign lmao. even when typing this, my heart is racing and i don't think it's because of the thrill of my math lesson on triangles.
taking a break almost seems more like.. leaving permanently
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa yeah things aren't going great
i don't understand my circumstances either. i'm not ill, i'm still pretty happy and content, and everything's fine ( except the math test i flunked a week ago ), so i sit here thinking why
am i slowly losing feeling like eva too??? that's funny, almost.
yesterday i gave this huge chastising speech to one of my friends who just accepted the reality that the world is corrupt and is okay with capitalism because they knew they couldn't do anything to change it,,,
i wonder who'll give me that sort of pep-talk when i lose my faith too
i spoke such bold words with even bolder opinions, where's all of that going to get me? my voice will remain buried.
so depressing amirite, where's the peppy saint-like attitude ship has 90% of the time?
curse my want to better the world, it gives me no benefits whatsoever </3
everything will be daijoubu, so long as i believe in the power of magic anime soccer and gay chinese cultivators-
on that note if u watched/read the untamed/mdzs/tgcf/svsss hmu i want to cry again over wangxian and jiang cheng ok bye
