Love me, Love me

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A/N: This chapter is from Delilah/Red's POV. She has such an interesting way of thinking and I like to be in her head :)

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I hated these stupid... feelings. God, they were so fucking disgusting. Every time I looked at her, it was like my organs were rearranging themselves. I talked to Juniper about it and she said that was called butterflies. I saw her smile, and I smiled. That'd never happened to me before. This romance shit was starting to mess with my brain. I wasn't usually the one catching feelings but it was happening so fast and I was hating it. I liked Georgia but this was a little too much for me. I could assume the same for her, she literally told me to take it slow.

So, I spent the day camped out in Medbay as June tended to Elena. I sat on the other bed, staring up at the ceiling and sometimes talking to her. Mostly it was just silent as we waited for any sign of consciousness from Elena. It was pretty important that she woke up since she was the only one of us who knew where we were going.

We didn't have to wait long, she came to after about an hour of patience. She seemed disoriented when she sat up in bed, looking around like she'd never seen this place before. Juniper was already next to her, pressing a hand to her forehead and meeting her wandering eyes.

"Elena," she said soothingly. "I'm gonna need you to look at the light."

She grabbed a tiny flashlight from the side table and Elena looked into it. I hated not understanding what was going on so I looked away and at the walls. It was quite peaceful in here with all the white. It felt warm and safe somehow. This was the only place on this ship that I felt those things. Except for when I was with Georgia. Of course I'm thinking about her again. 

"Can you tell me what happened?" Juniper asked, putting down the light and focussing on Elena.

She sighed, glancing around the room as she took on a lost expression. "It was... really hot and I wanted to cool down. I was sweating. It's all kind of a blur. I guess I just passed out."

Juniper nodded, shifting her stance. "You are experiencing symptoms of withdrawal. Is there anything you wanna tell me?"

Her eyes were frozen on June's face now. She was silent and stubborn. I suspected that she wasn't going to say anything. She was an extremely private person and she didn't want to share. Take away the fact that we wouldn't give her drugs if we knew about the addiction.

"You should take that as a yes," Mateo said from the cot across from mine. "She's not going to tell you but it's true."

Elena's face went red with anger as she stared at the floor. She looked strange like this. From the green in her hair and the red in her face, she almost looked like some weird Christmas decoration. I had the urge to hang ornaments in her hair.

"You're alright."

I barely had time to see who the relieved voice came from before he was standing next to Elena. It was Nathan, if you're curious. His eyes were roaming her face as she stared back at him. He grabbed her hand and kissed the back of her palm, smiling. She got a guilty look on her face at the relief he showed for her.

I was about to leave when I heard sirens wailing and red lights flickered from the halls. I turned my gaze back to the others to find Mateo putting his tablet away. I told myself to forget it as I looked back at Nathan and Juniper.

"I'll go see what it is," I said, nodding.

"I'll come too," Mateo offered, standing and walking down the hallway. "I checked and it said to go to the reactor."