winter romance dreamxoc

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/haha i'm so cool you are to, like we are hot shit.\

waking up my eyes were crusted shut. that gross sticky feeling in mouth. my nose was stuffy and dry. my hands were in between my things and my body was in a ball on my bed blankets and pillows thrown around me. i saw cowy on the floor by my closet. he was a stuffed cow i got when i was 7 from my dad.

i turned my body which was facing the wall and now faced to ceiling. i breathed in the kind of musty and dry air. i coughed a little and held in my breath. my chest hurt i don't know if it was from laying on my side, holding my breath, or the fact that my whole life was breaking in front of my eyes but i was 4 months to late to stop it.

my phone dinged i ignored it, if it was anything other then a text from kenna i know i would cry. so i did the smart thing. i grabbed my phone clearing all notifications and deleted all social media's and every app that wasn't music or texts. i blocked every number but my moms and kenna's.

i needed to be able to focus on myself i would deal with everything soon. but i needed to be able to at least walk first! my mind drifted back to clay.. what did he stop talking to me? did he move on? maybe he lost hope for me.. no stop taylor. even if he did you guys were just friends.

"hey taylor you up?" kenna's soft feminine voice asked through the door. she didn't come in but she stood against it i could tell.
"i came in last night and you were asleep so i saved you food, there is pizza it's hawaiian!". (hawaiian is good and pineapple does go on pizza if you don't agree stfu you under developed baby. 🙃🙃)
she knew it was my favorite.
"taylor i know it's a lot right now but giving up isn't the answer. come out we can eat then clean up a little!" she was trying so hard for me, and what good was i. i'm not worth the effort she's putting in.. she opened the door then.
"hey come on.. let's get you up.." she put her hands out and grabbed mine.
"on the count of 3 you're gonna stand okay? i'll grab your crutches and we will go eat." she had the crutches against my bed and my hands in hers she counted.
"1" you can do this taylor
"2" it's easy and she's here for you
"3" push push and i'm up.
"see that wasn't to hard!! you did great! here" she put the crutches under me and opened the door letting me go first..

this whole thing was bizarre. i don't who crashed into us, who took the pictures, or what the hell happened with clay. i know i want to fix things and know what happened with clay but right now i needed to stop the pictures, in the accounts latest tweet it said

(i don't remember if i gave taylor a last name so i just used murray sorry if there is one lmao)

User1407
Silky AKA Taylor Murray has left the hospital but we still have dirt on her which include, more pictures, problems from the past, her current address and her family's and friends addresses. So you can't hind from us we'll always be here.

user1 what the hell...

hater1 as you should she could've killed everyone in the car crash she caused

toelicker69 you need to stop. it's fucked up. looking into you all now.

it was bad, of course i could've been kidnapped but this is bad too. maybe kenna knows some stuff i really just need to talk to someone. i haven't had a real conversation in a while. so grabbing my crutches i hobbled out to the kitchen, kenna was on the phone with someone..
"yea no she hasn't said much.. i might see if she wants to go to a counselor... it might help! i'll ask.." i walked out then she turned quickly saying
"hey i'll call you later okay?" and she hung up.
"hey you alright?" she asked me i starred at her. how the fuck would i be okay. i'm being doxxed and nobody is doing anything the cops are doing shit. fuck them cops.
"i-"my voice croaked "i'm alright. could be better" my throat was dry and already hurt.
"ya know i'm here for you.. and i know i'm not the best person to talk to cause i'll want to fix it.. but i am here! and maybe you seeing a counselor would be for your own good." okay so she was talking about me, but to who?
"i've been thinking about that. maybe it wouldn't be bad" i used to go to counseling when i was younger. it didn't go well i was closed off and really didn't like the lady i worked with. but maybe this would be different!
"really?! good! i know a lady who would love to help. and i'm here for you though the whole thing." she took my free hand and squeezed it.

so the next day we were driving 15 minutes to meet dr. Maura. she was nice she had grey hair and light brown skin her eyes were chocolate brown. she was easy to talk to after meeting her.
she asked me simple questions, starting with things like, where i was from my close friends, family relationships, jobs, love life and things. and that was the hour. just getting to know me and she let me know her too. she has 3 kids all over 20 she's a grandmother of 2 her husband passed away 2 years ago and she used to work in a walmart where they did cart races when she was a teen.

on the way back home kenna had to run to the store so she went in while i stayed in the car, i didn't want to be noticed. i mean i was the girl who had nudes leaked and shit. i had deleted everything off my phone pretty much so it was useless. i tossed it to the back and turned the radio on. im sure people were going crazy from my sudden aliveness but i didn't care. i wanted to be happy and my mental growth was gonna do that!

after a little kenna came out a surprised yet sad look on her face. she saw me looking at her and the look was gone.
"okay i got pizza and soda! let's watch a movie tonight then tomorrow i'm going to the gym if you want to come? just arms simple things!" she said cheering despite how she looked seconds ago.
"uh sure but the doctor said i should do some stretching and involve my leg when i can." i added happy she wanted me to go with her
"oh yeah! i'll help you with that! it'll be good." she said as she pulled out and started driving.

it was weird being in a car. knowing that what i did caused everything to mess up. i could've killed everyone i loved. my hands were shaking. sweat started on my palms. i got hurt. they probably did to just minor. if kenna were to swerve right now i could be right back where i started. or i could die. my body shook a pounding started in my head. i heard something.
"taylor. taylor!" kenna, kenna was yelling at me. i turned to her. when did we get home? what happened?
"are you okay? you were shaking and focused on something.."
"yea yea i'm good." wincing as i stood i grabbed my crutches and went inside.

we started watching the movie she chose ratatouille. she talked about how she wanted to make everything from the movie. i agreed it looked amazing! i slowly felt my eyes get heavy. the dark room warm temperature and chatter from the movie really helped me sleep. and i was out.

i dreamt of forests. tall dark trees sprouting from the earth. it was dark outside and i saw yellow eyes watching me from the canopies. birds and bushes were all i heard. this dream wasn't filled with movement and choices but life and ever changing factors. the trees shifted from dark to light leaves moving. it was calm and quiet, sort of beautiful but a hint of fear ran through me. my spine shivered the air got cold around me. i saw nothing then, just blackness.
"hello?" my voice croaked. it echoed, morphing into a ringing. then a sound,
"hello?" a voice of a child yelled back. after a light! my eyes moved to it seeing a small figure cuddled against it.
"you there! who-who are you?" i yelled now. the child seemed further away the closer i got! then my feet got stuck. squishing and pulling i was stuck. then something pulled me down and with a gasp i woke.

kenna head on my lap, we were on the couch and nothing was playing. a window was open. i slipped her head off, and grabbing my crutches i went to close it. with a click it locked. good. i laid back down next to her. and with a sigh i slept again.

A/N
popping off loves! anywho i already said my loves in the A/N sooo i do still love you but there's no other notes!
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