The Only Exception

10

Lisa's POV

Dull. Lifeless. Dead. 

That's what I'm feeling right now. I stare at the ceiling of my office while laying at the sofa. Dad never visit me here either with my apartment. 

Since Jennie left me, I left my house too and didn't bother to get everything and just left it there. I look at my mom's picture in my table and sigh. 

"I wish you were here mom" I mumbled and place my arm in my eyes. 

I miss my mom so much. I miss her advices and her smile. I wish I could hug her again. 

"One" I started counting. I count when I feel like I want to kill myself but something rather someone just stop me from doing it. 

"Two" I continued, I stood up and go around my table. I open the drawer where I hide my gun. 

"Three" I played with some bullets in my hand and stared intently at the unloaded gun. 

"Four" I started to load the magazine and inserted it to the gun. 

"Five" I touch the barrel feeling the coldness and slide it. I pull the safety lever. 

"Six" I place it to my head and continued to count. 

"Seven" If Jennie would appear in my door right now, I will not kill myself. 

"Eight" I just want to die. I don't want to live anymore. I have nothing by my side. 

"Nine" I place my forefinger into the trigger. 

"Te—" The door bangs opened loudly that startled me causing me to drop the gun. 

"What the fuck are you doing?!" Seulgi yelled at me and stormed right at my table. 

I didn't bother to speak and get the gun again. I raise it and pointed at Seulgi. 

"Oh no you didn't just pointed that thing at me" Seulgi mock. 

"Yes. Yes I did." I simply said. Seulgi shake her head and walked towards me. 

"Don't you try to get near me Seulgi. I can pull the trigger anytime I want." I stated dull. No emotions. 

"No you can't do that." She stated bravely. I just stared at her and pointed the gun behind her. I shoot at the wall. 

Seulgi didn't fazed. Infact, she just chuckled and smiled at me. 

"You won't kill your bestfriend Lisa. I know you still have emotions." She said and slowly pulled out the gun in my grip and expertly disarranged the gun. 

She walked around the table to cupped my cheeks and wipe the tears that I didn't know that escaped in my eyes. 

"Did you try to kill yourself again?" She said calmly. I didn't answer but placed my head in her shoulder. 

"I have someone that needs to talk to you." She said and pushed me away a little and glance over the door. I follow her and saw Jisoo standing there awkwardly. 

"What are you doing here?" I asked coldly. 

"I... I just want to show you something" She said and opened the door of my office. 

I stiffened. I started to have a panic attack and my hand quickly search the gun. When I didn't feel where it is I glance at Seulgi and saw that she had it and shaking her head in me. 

"Lisa." No. No. No. I don't want to hear your voice! 

"Lisa" No! I don't know you! I don't need you! I kneeled and hide under my office table and cover my ears.