Nct Dream |Instagram| [Nomin , Markhyuck , Chensung]

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"Mark?" Jeno entered the door and took off his shoes.

Mark's apartment was rid of any light. Not one on in the entire house. Jeno ran a shakey hand through his hair. This was probably the worst Mark has ever gotten.

Jeno pulled off his jacket and hung it up, he assumed Mark was in his bedroom but he took a beeline towards the kitchen, filling up a cup of water and grabbing a pack of animal cracker from the cupboard.

Mark was forgetful when he was sad. He would forget all the necessities his body needed. Food, water, showering, sleep, etc.

Jeno took them both in one hand and made his way to the bedroom door.

"Mark?" Jeno pushed the door open, the room was completely dark but he could some what make out a lump on the bed.

"Go home Jeno," Mark's tired voice whispered out into the room. "I'll be fine."

"Sorry man," Jeno shrugged and sighed before moving his hand towards the lamp on Marks desk.

"What-"

Jeno twisted the switch and the room filled up with a warm light, he could hear Mark gasp before throwing his hands over his eyes.

Jeno's eyes widened as he looked around Mark's room. The curtain rod was ripped off his window, his desk chair was laying on the floor. Clothes were strung everywhere and he could see many pieces of paper crumbled and ripped all over the place.

"Here," Jeno wanted to ease into everything. Whether Mark wanted to talk to him or not, he was going to stay with his best friend. He put the water and crackers down next to the bedside table before sitting cross legged on the bed next to the lying down elder.

They sat in silence for a few minutes, Mark had yet to remove his hands from his eyes. Jeno didnt mind though, he could wait for Mark to talk to him. He always promised to listen but thats only if Mark wanted to talk. If not, Jeno was willing to sit with him until he was better.

"Jeno," Mark finally let out, his voice wavering from behind his hands.

Jeno kept silent but nodded even though the older couldn't see him.

"I lost him."

He could see Marks chin wobbling out of control. It took him by suprise because out of all the years he has known Mark, he has only seen him cry twice.

The first time when he graduated high school and had to leave them for college (even though he knew he would see them in college the next year.) And when they had lost their first championship game, it was more of silent crying after he thought all the players had left. But Jeno had walked in and he immediately wiped his eyes and gave Jeno a pat on the shoulder with a smile before saying, "You always do so well, Jeno-ya."

Mark sat himself up and roughly grabbed onto his hair with his hands.

"I fucking lost him."

"Mark you didnt. You just need to wait-" Jeno tried to soothe him, he just needed to wait until Donghyuck was ready to listen. He hoped that one day they both would be.

"Yes I did," Mark stood up from off the bed, he looked at Jeno with wild eyes. "What the fuck do you know?!"

Jeno was taken back by that, he tried not to let the hurt show on his face. "Mark-"

"You don't know anything," Mark turned around so his back faced Jeno. "I don't want to wait. I want Donghyuck back now. I need him Jeno."

"I know you do and you will-" Jeno stood up and made his way over to Mark carefully. Mark was super close to ripping out his own hair.

"No you don't!" Mark yelled and shoved Jeno. Jeno tripped back and slammed into Marks full body mirror. The force causing the mirorr and him to fall to the floor. There was a smash and the next thing Jeno knew, he was lying on top of a pile of glass.

He squeezed his eyes shut as he felt a piece almost digging into the skin of his palm.

"Jeno!" Mark yelled, grabbing Jeno's wrist and pulling him up off the floor, he instantly threw one arm around Jeno's shoulder and one arm around his back. He couldn't stop himself from breaking down. He just hurt his little brother because he couldn't control himself.

"Jeno-" Mark looked at him with wide eyes. "I'm sorry. I am so so sorry, i-i didn't, m-mean to, I-i am s-sorry-"

He just lost his soulmate and he was probably about to lose his best friend.

"Its ok," Jeno patted Marks back, his voice muffled in Mark's shoulder because the elder was clutching onto him so hard. "Im sorry for pushing you."

"You d-didn't," Mark tried to compose himself but failed and just held onto Jeno tighter. "I just- I dont- he said I broke him, I dont-"

Jeno rubbed his hand up and down Marks back. His heart hurting with every heart wrenching sob that escaped Mark.

Mark pulled back and wiped his eyes before sighing and face plating onto his bed.

"You ok?" Jeno tried carefully, going to slowly sit on the bed.

"Are you ok?" Mark turned his head, his eyes softening at Jeno's unsure face.

"I'm alright," Jeno nodded his head before looking at Mark. "You ready to talk now."

Mark nodded before turning his head in the other direction, he couldn't look at Jenk while he spoke.

"I've been friends with Haechannie my whole life. I didn't think he was going to grow so important to me. I need him," Mark started, his hands closing and opening with every other word.

Jeno slowly brought out his phone and clicked his voice memos. If Mark couldn't fix it then maybe he could?

"I hurt him, he told me. I hate myself for it. But as much as I know its wrong, I want to be selfish and keep him to myself. I want to be the only one that he smiles at, laughs with, I want to be the one he comes to when he's sad... I want to be the one he loves," Mark closed his eyes.

"I finally found out what Lisa said and when I went to explain it. He told me he was done. Done with me. I don't know what to do," Mark could feel his eyes welling up again.  "He's my everything."

"But I cant be selfish. I've been too selfish already. If he wants to be away from me then I have to let him go," Mark nodded his head before turning his head back the Jeno. Jeno quickly put his phone behind his back before Mark could see it.

"But I don't want to let him go-" Mark huffed out with teary eyes before shaking his head.

Jeno quickly turned off his memos and patted the elders back again.

"Ugh," Mark tilted his head back, putting his fingers on his nose bridge and pinching. He had a headache from all the crying. "Jeno?"

"The water and crackers are right there," Jeno said immediately thinking thats what Mark wanted.

"No," Mark shook his head and looked at his friend. His heart feeling guilty when he saw the little scratches on the inside of Jeno's palm from where he fell. Not a big deal but they probably stung. "Can you stay?"

"I was already planning on it," Jeno gave him an eyesmile, hoping to cheer Mark up even a little bit.

And it did.

Even if it was temporary.