Medicine [h.s]

02

Fear. Something I haven't felt in a long time. I haven't been afraid of them at all so far, but now I know I have no choice but to do whatever they say.And I don't like that at all, I'm more worried about Bethany and Sophie, but I'm already broken and I can't take it anymore. But I have to stay alive for my family.

Because they are my family.

I don't sleep much at night anyway, especially not on Thursdays, but that was different now. I didn't close my eyes for a moment. I couldn't stop crying. I've been thinking all night. Why do I have to pack?
I just can't believe I got into such big trouble. It's all my fault, just because I was curious Bethany and Sophie are in danger too.

And now I have to pretend everything is fine. It sucks because Bethany is the only one I can't lie to. And I will be late. I've been doing a lot of bad lately if I deserve this.

Now I stand in a bra in my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. And I hate myself. Everything that happened to me and happens to me is my fault. I'm not saying I deserved it because it's not true. But it's my fault because I could have prevented everything. And now I hate looking in the mirror. When I look at my chest and upper abdomen, I get disgusted with myself because I let it happen. I remember Bethany's face when she saw my scars. I saw that she was disappointed in me. And it hurt more than the scars.

I wipe away my tears and get dressed quickly. I always make sure my scars aren't visible. I hate questions. And no one needs to know what they are and why they are there.

"Ashley." There's a knock on my door, which interrupts my thoughts.

"What?" I ask angrily. I open the door and find myself face to face with my mother.

"Could you lend me some money?"Ugh, I can't believe her.

"No chance." I step out the door next to her, go into the hall, and pick up my shoes.

"Ashley, please. I don't need that much. Just give me a little, it would be important." I laugh at her sentence.

"Mom, I have to go to school, I'm late and honestly I don't feel like arguing with you. So fuck you and buy drug from your own money."I step out the front door nervously. Helping on my nervousness, I take out a cigarette. When I inhale the smoke, I feel immediately calmed down. However, it doesn't take long because I hear a familiar voice.

"You're late for school." The raspy voice says.

I turn around and find myself facing those prickly green eyes. He wears black skinny jeans with a black shirt with his sleeves pulled up to his elbows.His left forearm is full of tattoo.But surprisingly,there is not a tattoo on his right forearm.There are leather bracelets on his right wrist and rings on his fingers.

"W-what are you doing here?" My day couldn't be worse.

"I felt like I would love to go to school today." He says sarcastically. "I'm here because you have your first task."he says as he puts a chewing gum in his mouth.

"A-And what is my task?" I hope this is not illegal because I don't want to be part of their gang.

He reaches into his pocket and takes out a flash drive. "I'm going to give you this flash drive. Once you have entered the school, connect this to the principal's computer. A window will appear on the screen and you will see all kinds of numbers bounce. Then it starts to load. You wait until it reaches one hundred percent and then unplug the flash drive from the computer. Make sure the computer is turned on. Then in the afternoon, when you're done in school, I'm going to wait out here and you have to give the flash drive back to me. Did you understand?" He asks in the end.