You woke up to see Erwin gently pulling you close to himself. Erwin was disturbed to see you like this. You weren't one of those people who showed much expression and to hear you scream "let me die" scared him.
You were too embarrassed to look at his face because you weren't used to being so vulnerable. After a while, your weeping came to a halt and Erwin cupped your face and said: sshhh I'm here no matter what. Nothing will hurt you as long as I'm here. Whatever it is you're going through, you're not alone and I'm here with you, okay?". You blinked a few times after wiping your eyes and gave him a nod.
You felt glad that unlike most people he didn't freak out and started asking a thousand questions. He had a sort of a silent and quiet way to provide comfort to people which works best for you.
Despite appearing in control, Erwin's mind was racing, but, right now, he needed to calm you down. He stood up with your hand in his and told you to come along with him. You both walked to his office. Not many people were around in the corridor because it was getting quite late at night.
After giving you some food and water, Erwin started wondering whether it'd be safe to let you be alone tonight. He was worried that you might do something to yourself. You were used to the nightmares but no one prior to this caught you having one and on top of that, having a breakdown because of it. It was getting late and you decided to go back to your room. Erwin held your hand and said: Please stay. Don't leave me. I-I'm worried for you and..a-nd please let me take care of you."
You instantly started crying again. After losing your family, never once in your life has anyone ever shown you so much affection. It wasn't much but enough to overwhelm you. Your back was facing him with your hand on the door handle.
What Erwin did next was something that even he couldn't comprehend. He walked over to you and wrapped his hands around your waist and whispered in your ears "I can't lose you and if you walk out from here in this state, I think I might, so, please stay." You shivered at feeling his breath on your ears. In that moment, neither of you could understand what was happening. Is this how friends behave? Is this appropriate? What does this mean? But both of you felt incredibly warm and cozy in the closeness that you two shared. Erwin turned you around and met your eyes. You looked into his big blue eyes that helped you to calm down. You couldn't imagine anyone else conforming you like this, so impulsively you placed your lips on his. Erwin was surprised for a few seconds but instinctively kissed you back hurriedly as if he's used to the taste of your lips. It didn't take too long for both of you to end up on his couch clinging on to each other. In between, both of you pulled back from the kiss to take a breather. "I think we should stop for now." Erwin stated. You whined. He said "you're not feeling well today (name). Why don't we think this through before we proceed any further? Get some rest. You can use my bed and I can just sleep on the couch. We'll talk tomorrow okay?" Erwin said and gave you a soft smile. Of course you weren't feeling well but this only worsened your mood because it sounded like he was rejecting you. You already felt pretty pathetic because all you'd done this evening is have a break down, cry a lot and then made out with the man who was trying to comfort you. You felt like shit. You sighed and told him: you don't have to worry about me so much you know! I'm a grown up. I can take care of myself. If you don't want me just say that instead of beating around the bush..."
Erwin was hurt to hear these words. He angrily replied " I am damn aware that you're fully capable of taking care of yourself, but relying on others during difficult times doesn't nullify that! Also, I had no intention of rejecting you. I'm worried sick for you and I don't want to take advantage of you when you're not even thinking clearly!...Listen, I know we've only been friends and we've never done something like this with each other which is why it's even more important to think this through. Please try to understand." Your emotions got the best of you. You felt really bad for how you treated him. "I'm sorry...I don't know what I was thinking..." you said. He told you that it's all okay and hugged you. Both of you went to sleep separately and anxiously wondering what would happen tomorrow morning.
