[🎧: Sunflower - Rex Orange County]
📎 "Goodbye."
I said this not to you but to the feelings I have for you. I asked my brain to find and dispose the scattered love I have for you in every nook and cranny of my heart. I couldn't throw them away all at once because some were tucked in my memories and some, hidden in my dreams. I remember commanding my brain to do so. I was a fool, of course.
How could I ever say goodbye to all of these? How do I forget the technicolor of love you showed and I felt? It wasn't right to even attempt to discard the history of us in my mind, because if I did I would only be erasing what is perhaps the most colorful part of my life.
I didn't want to say goodbye. I still don't. I'm still trying to, but I am having a really tough time doing so. I'm still even writing these chapters. So how is this goodbye when I still keep on wanting to run to you?
—
I want to know
Where I can go
When you're not around
and I'm feeling down.
—Rex Orange County
——
JEEPNEY
I wish that you never have
your heart forget
the warmth of our fingers entertwined,
the silly joy of keeping inside jokes,
the cliché butterflies in our stomach when
we get to sit beside each other,
the excitement when we meet eyes in the morning.
This may be wrong to wish
for we haven't met in years
we haven't talked in so long either,
but really,
I wish that you never have
your heart forget
me, us, ever.
— C l a n d e s t i n e
YOU ARE READING
All My Lies
RandomThis is really just a record of all the lies I regret telling, showing, and believing; all the lies that have hurt both of us and our bond; all the lies and what I really meant to say or do for you. Really, I was just writing away the regret of lett...
