Secretly and deliberate

Cap. 3 Trust

It had already been a month since they had discovered their reciprocate love in secret. Belle had forgotten about the strange meeting with Sheila and their families suspected nothing. They usually met up to film videos and they always ended up sleeping together. They used every single moment they were alone to steal a hug or a kiss.

It's not considered strange nowadays for two boys to love each other, but the way they found it out forced them to live their story in secret: they were both straight and knowing they were in love with a person of the same gender gave them many questions to find an answer to before telling other people about it. Especially Eddy.

Din don.

Eddy opened the door for Brett. He had gone to the store to buy something for dinner. Brett walked into the house and made his way to the kitchen.

Brett: "Get out of my kitchen!"

Eddy: "I just want to help you..."

Brett: "No, sit down! I'll cook for us tonight!"

Eddy: "Ok mom!"

Eddy made his way back to the living room to wait for Brett. He loved the way he took care of him. After a while, Brett walked into the room with two plates full of what looked like Eddy's favourite dish. He put the dishes on the table and they sat down in front of the each other.

Eddy: "Thank you love, you didn't have to work that hard just for me..."

Brett: "My pleasure Eddy...wait, is this a nice way to say that it sucks??"

Eddy: "No! It's delicious, I only meant that..."

Brett: "I'm joking, calm down! But if it sucks you can tell me"

Eddy: "No no, told you, it's delicious, thank you!"

Brett: "Cheers!"

Said Brett lifting a piece of food with his chopsticks. Eddy smiled back at him and lowered his gaze: this wonderful present brought him back to his questions.

Eddy: "I keep wondering about this Brett"

Brett: "About what?"

Eddy: "About us: I've always known I was straight, and realizing I'm in love with someone of the same gender as me gave me many doubts...maybe that's why I tried to build a life with a girl...don't get me wrong I love you and I always will. I can't imagine a life without you"

Brett: "Well I read a psychological study some days ago entitled "sexual fluidity", or something like that, and I think I understand it: basically only because you're straight it doesn't mean that it's impossible for you to fall in love with a person of the same gender...I still think I'm straight even if you're basically my boyfriend. I've come to the conclusion that I just love you and maybe I would have loved you even if you were a girl or anything else. I love you because you're you, regardless of your gender. You're the only boy who can make me feel this way, in fact during these years if someone had gotten close to becoming something for me it was always a girl, not a boy...you're the exception"

Eddy: "You're probably right, I should stop torturing myself with useless questions"

Brett: "They are not useless, it's kinda normal I think in a situation like ours"

Eddy: "mmm...I feel a little bit jealous now..."

Brett: "Why?"

Eddy: "If someone had gotten close to becoming something for me, it means that you've had your share of experiences..."

Brett: "Hem-em...you've been with Sheila for three years Eddy!"

Eddy: "Oh...that's true... I now realise you were suffering for me too. I was so caught up in the pain that I have been experiencing in our relationship, that I've never thought about your pain, not even when I learnt your feelings for me ...sorry, I can't imagine how much I hurt you. Believe me: hurting you is the last thing I want!"

Brett: "I know it Eddy; let's stop thinking about the past, what matters now is us, I love you"

Eddy: "I love you too"

Eddy stood up and walked toward Brett. He wanted to hug his little koala: in a way he felt guilty for hurting him. He reached the little space between Brett and the table and pulled his lover in his arms hiding Brett's head in his hoodie. All he wanted to do was to make him feel safe, apologize for sickening his heart, for forcing him to live with the sight of Sheila being able to do what he had always wanted to do.

Eddy: "Sorry..."

Brett: "I can't blame you for trying not to suffer Eddy. I'd lie if I told you that I didn't do the same..."

Brett rubbed his nose on Eddy's belly, he knew his lover was ticklish. In that moment Brett felt something hard in Eddy's pants, but not the thing he expected nor his phone. He looked up at Eddy with a wondering face. Eddy laughed seeing his expression. He took a cardboard box from his pocket and gave it to Brett.

Eddy: "I noticed you started using my soap. Are you that lazy you don't want to go to the store to buy your own after I bought you mine by mistake when you were sick?"

Brett blushed and looked down laying his head again on Eddy's belly.

Brett: "Actually I started using it because I love your smell..."

He said quietly, hoping that Eddy couldn't hear him

Eddy: "Oh...well...you can take one of my apparel hoodies if you want, this way no one will notice the difference, but please use your soap I love your smell too..."

Brett took the soap still looking down embarrassed. Eddy gently pushed his chin up with two fingers combing his black hair with his free hand. Brett smiled at him and stood up, he made his way to his jacket and put the little box in one pocket. Eddy couldn't resist and approached him to hug him from behind, leaning his head on Brett's right shoulder.

Eddy: "I know it's a promise that I probably won't be able to keep, but I promise I'll try my best not to hurt you anymore"

Brett: "I know you will keep it don't worry, if you ever hurt me it won't be intentional. I completely trust you"

Brett let himself fall back in Eddy's arms. Eddy lifted his lover's body feeling the little koala's paws hugging his neck. Brett's head hid in his chest, his hot breath warming his hoodie. Eddy made his way to the couch and put Brett down watching with an adoring expression how little he looked on the large sofa.

Brett: "I knew you wouldn't let me fall"

Eddy: "I'm not done yet..."

Eddy stretched his arm to remove Brett's glasses and turned the lights off. He climbed on the couch laying his body on Brett's. One hand on Brett's cheek, the other on the armrest right behind his head: he got closer and tasted the little koala's lips. Brett lifted his hands to pull Eddy closer by his clothes. Eddy could feel his small fingers wrinkling the fabric on his chest. Brett wasn't pulling violently; it was more like a veiled "you're not allowed to go anywhere" than a real pull. Eddy liked the way Brett let him lead the game this time. He ran one hand down on Brett's chest and was about to undo his belt when they heard Eddy's phone ring.

It was Belle calling. Strange hour to call, thought Eddy as he saw his sister's name on the screen. He had to answer or it would have been suspicious. Hoping for a quick conversation, he clicked the answer button. He felt Brett's fingers grabbing tighter: he was afraid that the magic in the room could fade.

Eddy: "Hello, hi Belle...what?! Wait I can explain...come to my place I will explain I swear!"

Eddy stood up and turned the lights on causing Brett to squeeze his eyes. He looked pale and seriously worried.

Brett: "What's up??"

Eddy: "I have no time to explain now, it's better if you go! I'll explain everything tomorrow!"

Brett: "No Eddy, you're too worried, we are just having dinner together, Belle won't understand! You're still my best friend after all!"

Eddy: "You're right... it's actually better if you stay, just follow my lead, ok?"

Brett: "Ok!"

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A/N: Actually like this one, but my writhing was still so unripe (not that I improved much anyways). Hope you liked it, and thank you for 200 views! <3