OMNISCIENT

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Chapter 39- Heartattack Part II

    Jeremiah stood there confused for a second until everything clicked. Safe to say, London was not a favourite person of his.

"I can explain Sam." He stepped in and closed the door behind me.

"Please do Jeremiah.... no, you know what, don't. This is another drama to add to your mess and I am so f'kn tired of it yo... tired." Her voice broke.

There was no holding back these tears now.

"Riyah... it isn't what you think. I don't know what London came to you with but it's not. Gosh, I love you Sam. I'm just trying to make this work. You said you don't want the mess, I was trying to get it out of the way. I went to Leah and..." He cleared up the situation for her.

Sam sat on her carpet with tears streaming down her face. Jeremiah had joined her but kept his distance.

"Why the hell am I even crying? Jeremiah, do you know what was running through my head, especially after our argument and you saying you love her? I was on the verge of a full breakdown because I was between telling myself you would never and what if? F'k... this is what I'm talking about Jeremiah... "

"What Sam'Riyah? Let me know what is going on here. Let me fix it, please."

"I just feel like I've been put in so many situations for the sake of you... sh't that I would have never tolerated for just anyone. I had so much energy being drained because I want to be in your life... from you, Riley, your mom, Leah, your family.... my relationship with my bestfriend. Everything happened in such a short period of time so, imagine how overwhelmed I felt and you were just watching me go through it." Sam started.

"I didn't watch you go through it. I was there for you wasn't I?" Jeremiah tried to understand.

"Yes you were with me but what did you do to stop the situation? Everything required my extra energy to push you to do something. I do appreciate you being there but I was constantly in some fight because of you. So, can you blame me for breaking that night when I had to carry the full burden of your mother's wrongs? I couldn't even focus on my own personal problems much less, dealing with the problems concerning you. There is a point where any body would break..." Sam continued.

Jeremiah held his head down. He never looked at it that way.

"I'm so sorry. I wasn't looking at it like that. I promise I will do better Sam. Just give me another chance."

"I don't know Miah. You may be just telling me what you know I want to hear. I love you... I really do, so much that it hurts being like this with you..."

"Come on babe, please... We can start over and do this right. The problems are low right now. We can do this..."

Sam sighed. She shook her head. The thought of losing her for good struck Jeremiah.

"Riyah..." He drew her to him, held her hands to his face, and placed a lingering kiss in her palm, "I love you so much. I can't afford to lose you because I was too f'kd up to deal with sh't. I'm begging you..."

He put his forehead to hers and a tear escaped his eye. F'k she has me. I'm in too deep. He thought.

She pulled away from him.

"I love you too Miah. I do but love is not something that we use to stay unhappy in-" 

Jeremiah drew back too.

"Unhappy?" He looked at her, obviously hurt from the use of that word. Sam tried to speak up but he cut her off.

"What should I take from that?" Jeremiah snapped, "Huh? You were unhappy with me? You must be a damn good actor Riyah because I thought we were good and happy."