We get to the house and she sets up the TV for me while she's in the shower. I was so nervous I wasn't paying attention to the tv. I haven't been with anyone since Halle and honestly a little nervous.
"Okay, what do you want to watch" says Kehlani coming down stains in a white tshirt and loose cotton shorts
"Um you watched that show pose yet" I say
"No but I'm down to watch" says Kehlani
We sat and watched two episodes and then that's when things started getting a little different.
"I'm sorry did we come here to have sex" I say putting my hand on my chin
"Well only if you wanted to" says Kehlani"I wasn't gonna make a big deal about it"
"You came down in the tightest shirt and shorts with no underwear might I add but it's no big deal" I say laughing
"I want you so bad, after that night I couldn't stop thinking about you" says Kehlani"I want to make your body feel like it's never felt before"
"Kehlani..." I say"
"I'm serious" says Kehlani looking at me
"Show me how serious" I say
She walked me to her room we stood infront of her bed and she kissed me again. This time she let her hands travel to my hips and wrapped one of her arms around me.
"How do you like it?" says Kehlani whispering in my ear
"I'll just say I'm not weak" I say touching the front of her shorts
That caused her to take a deep breath
"I'm not as shy as I seem" says Kehlani taking her shirt off
"Really?" I says putting my hand on her neck
"No, I wanted to give it to you right there out in public" says Kehlani
Just from hearing her say that made me want her bad
She pulls down her shorts and starts touching herself. The way she looked at me while she did it turned me on but I had to keep it together.
I stripped down to my bra and panties and layed back on the bed. She gets closer and starts touching me.
"Oh sorry, condoms" says Kehlani going in her drawer to get one
She puts it on and lays down on the bed.
"Come here" says Kehlani
I lift up and straddle her. I want it so bad now that I'm shaking like a leaf from excitement.
We started kissing and grinding. Once she was inside of me I felt like she was really enjoying herself...I can't lie I was too.
She lift up and holds me close as she picks me up and puts my back against the wall.
"You don't seem like a bad girl" says Kehlani"But you gotta be"
She starts going slow and I start moaning so loud I can hear my voice echo through the room. She puts me down and lays me on my back.
"I want to see what your face looks like when you come for me" says Kehlani
"You're doing perfect, just don't stop" I say as she starts going faster
I touch the sweat on her abs, by the look in her eyes I can tell she feels that I'm about to come.
"Say my name when come" says Kehlani
"Mmm fuck" I say as I get close
My vision gets a little blurry so I wipe my eyes. I throw my head back before I come...then I see her
"Oh my God Halle" I say as I come
Annnd moment over
Well, now I'm crying and Kehlanis just been trying to comfort me but I keep pushing her away.
"Who's Halle" says Kehlani"Ex?"
"She was my girlfriend...she died in a car accident" I say pushing my hair back as I sit back on the headboard
She comes over to me and lays her head on my shoulder.
"Don't be embarrassed, you miss her" says Kehlani"It's okay, really"
"Why are you so understanding" I say"You don't even know me"
"Somethings wrong with me for being understanding of what's going on with you" says Kehlani"I've had worst happen during sex then being called someone else's name"
"I have to go, I can't do this" I say looking for my clothes
"Wait, are you gonna walk" says Kehlani
"Yes, I'm good...I know the way" I say
"I'll drive you" says Kehlani getting dressed
"No, leave me alone okay" I say putting my hand out infront of her"Do you understand me"
"Yeah" says Kehlani"I got you, I'll leave you alone"
"Good, bye" I say grabbing the rest of my stuff and walking out
I knew all of this was a bad idea. I'm not over her and I have to live with that for how ever long that is.
I'm so irritated with myself that I just stop at the liquor store and walk all the way to Halle's grave.
"I can't do this without you anymore... really I can't" I say"You are always so chill, keeping me from going over the deep end"
"...nothing to say now, you told me to move on but I can't" I say crying"You said you would never leave me"
I just sat there and kept drinking, hoping that when I woke up I would be with her.
When I woke up I had a blanket on me , water bottles, aspirin and some fruit. It had a note on the bag
I know you said leave you alone but I just wanted you to be safe-Lani
This woman will not let up on me
Then I look up and she's standing in the parking area. When she sees I'm awake she turns around and walks the other way.
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Secrets We Keep (H.E.R X Kehlani)
FanfictionThe truth comes out no matter what. Honestly this was a throw away I decided to finish.
