Red Rose-Draco Malfoy

14 - T h e L i b r a r y

Amelia

The time I had spent with the Malfoy's came with its ups and downs, their house was so big and beautiful.... but then there would be screaming and yelling, the sounds of people crying, being tortured, getting killed.

Trying to sleep was the hardest, the silence scared me, but having him beside me put me at ease hearing his breath, feeling his touch.

And well Draco, he had become slimmer, his face more pale, black circles under his eyes due to the lack of sleep, he didn't talk much, but I think he just enjoyed someone next to him, even if it's just silence.

I missed everything and everyone at Hogwarts and this place was just crawling with bloody Death Eaters, even me, I was one, and I hate myself for it, it burnt. And yet everything and every day were hard, it brought me pain to be something that they hated.

My mother was yet to answer me, that was over a week ago.

But the thing was that next week Draco and I will be returning to Hogwarts from the holidays, to start a new term.
Which meant facing everyone, yes I miss them dearly but thinking of even slightly hurting them, causes me never to want to go back ever.

And I didn't sleep much, my mind was so full and it was a horrible place.

I sat at the desk while looking at a blank piece of parchment, while for once Draco was asleep, he needed it, we would fight a lot, over little things really, but in the end, we just needed to be around each other.

I dipped the quill in some ink and started to write to Olivia, but in the end, I just couldn't do it, I could see her face when she got it the smile she probably had would disappear, and I can't do that to her.

I walked over to the bed while throwing the parchment in the fire watching the flames destroy it. I sat on the end of the bed while watching Draco, his body slowly moving up and down with each small breath.

"You know Draco, I really love you," I whispered, while sitting next to him, he was still in a deep sleep.

But little did I know he heard everything.

The next few days at the manor went by ever so slowly, we did the same thing over and over it was lonely there when Draco wasn't around but he didn't really leave my side he was protecting me, he wouldn't leave me for very long he would make sure I was near him at all times and had to have some sort of physical touch, and I think I was his weakness.

I was in the library when Draco came in a took a set on the couch, his scent filling the room and his blonde hair all done up neatly before a small smirk came across his face, he gestured for me to take a seat next to him by patting on his leg. He looked so good, I took a breath and took my book with me and laid my head in his lap, and looked up at the boy who had a beautiful smile on his dull face.

"What are you reading," he whispered, as he moved the hair that was falling on my face.

"Oh um, I don't really know what it is I just found it over on the bookshelf I didn't think you would mind, but it's actually really interesting ... I think it's a muggle book," I said with a little bit too much excitement, but the way he was looking at me like he loved to just sit and listen to me all day, I felt a warmth in my heart and knew I wanted him, I wanted to be his and only his.

"Well, could you read me some mhm?" I felt a small blush rise to my cheeks, before opening up to the page I was at and started to read in a soft tone, as he was playing with my hair, it felt too good to be true, Draco Malfoy, I was reading to him while he played with my hair.

After reading for half an hour or so I sat up from where I was laying on Draco's lap to meet his beautiful eyes, as they stared into my eyes and ever once and while down to my lips.

"Can I kiss you?" he whispered as he was now so close to me. His breath hitting my skin, I loved him.

"Yes." And before I knew it his lips were now on mine, his soft cold lips smashing into mine, from becoming soft and gentle kisses to becoming more intense. His hands moving around my body, my heart exploding, I had never felt like his before.

It felt right but it also felt wrong, there was a pit in my stomach as he moved to my neck. And that's when I stopped him and got up, tears forming in my eyes.

"I'm sorry i-i just can't". Tears running down my face as I run back to my room hearing him call out to me over and over.

I locked the door and gently slid down it, I wanted this, I wanted him, but I couldn't do it.

I spent the next few hours in my room, just waiting for something to happen or think of anything to say to him, waiting for anything, I hated this.

I walked over to my cupboard and slowly took my tight dress off, revealing my pale skin, and my bra that sat perfectly on my chest, I walked over to the bathroom and looked at myself in my mirror, my hair falling down to my back, my body had gotten curvier, and more developed.

For once I didn't hate what I saw, I slowly started to love my body. I was turning side to side in my mirror before there was a light knock at my door.

"Hang on." I ran and grabbed a dressing gown, it was black and had a silky look to it. I put it over my shoulders covering myself up and gently opened the door.

My heart sank, he stood there his hair a mess, he lightly smiled at me, my dressing gown opened a little revealing my black lace bra, I quickly moved it back up, my cheeks going red, I looked into his eyes, I didn't say anything I just needed him, I pulled him closer and placed my head on his chest.

"I'm sorry, Dra-." he cut me off.

"Shhh.. now come with me I really want to show you something." He pulled me away, and a smile grew on his pale face.

"Hang on I have to get dressed you know." I slightly giggled, his eyes light up with the smile I had on my face. He walked in front of me into my room towards the cupboard pulling out my clothes.

"This should do huh." He raised his eyebrows, he had pulled out one of the jumpers he had given me and some leggings, a smile made its way to my lips.

"Oh wow Malfoy, cute jumper huh." I nudged his shoulder.

"Yes actually Williams, it looks better on you than me." And with that, he walks out shutting the door waiting for me. I got dressed leaving my hair that was down low on my back.

"Follow me," he smirked grabbing my hand.