LIFE AS YOU SEE IT

7. LOSING SERENDIPITY

Many times you must have heard that we lose someone because we are meant to be with someone better, but what if the one we lost was that version of a better person.

It is said that friends are the family we get to choose which means they are our chosen family. Friendship carries a deep meaning.
It is a relationship where you can be yourself with the other person. Where you don't have the fear of getting judged. Where you don't have to think before speaking. My friendship was actually something like that.

But, have you lost your bestfriend?

So, I came to this city 8 years ago. Everything was new ; new city, new house and most important new school. I used to hate having to change my school's so many times because it's difficult for an introvert to always start everything from that one first day.  Oh yes I'm an introvert !!

It was my first day, 5th standard. I was nervous to go in front of strangers again but I didn't had any other choice. The real new thing about this time was that it was a all "girls school". So I thought that maybe it will be easier for me to adjust but oops no, infact it was more difficult. Girl's are actually more weird than boys sometimes and I met some weirdest people there. I felt so bad for first few weeks and then I starting adjusting myself between them. I found friends and they were good but I never felt myself with them, I used to pretend to be someone I was not. There is a huge difference between making fun of someone out of who they are and having fun with them and they used to make fun of me. I hated those situations.

Finally after these hard 2 years I met a girl; bold, frank,crazy, sweet and beautiful. She was a free spirit. She never cared about what people have opinions about her. I met her we became friends and slowly I realised that I was with toxic people before because she never pressurised me for doing something that I didn't like. We became best friends. I never had any siblings and at that time she treated me like her sister. She didn't let me feel lonely.

I was always myself with her.
From sharing my happiness to standing like a pillar with me she has done everything for me. From stalking handsome hunks to Saving me from creepy boys. From fighting for me to making me smile.  From Sharing our problems to solving them. From 'getting ready fast in the morning just to meet her' to 'walking slow towards the bus because we had a lot to talk'. From 'sitting together in class' to 'getting separated just because we were bestfriends'. From 'classmates' to being called 'sakhis by the teachers'. From doing 'bhangra in the class' to 'getting punishments together'. From 'her eating lunch in the class' to 'me saving her from the teacher'. From birthday wishes to the promise of lifetime of togetherness. And finally I was sure that I don't need anybody if she is there.

But destiny had other plans.
We got some new people in our group. We got separated in different streams and we didn't realise that slowly we got away from each other. There's a saying "The problem is as large as the group is''. We made a large group by the time so there were so many issues between our friends. And by that time we both lost each other, somewhere we were together but we were lost.

One day we both had an argument that was also because of a third person. It was my fault I allowed a third person to enter between us. Those people who met us 1 year back used to talk to her and this thing killed me from inside because I was dying to talk to her. And that one day took both of us far away from each other. No one from that group I repeat no one tried getting us back together. I used to cry everyday at home, in school washroom because for me school was nothing without her but I was helpless. Losing her was like losing myself. It felt like my heart was snatched away from my chest and I could not do anything. When she was in front me every moment but I did not had the guts to confront her and makeup for all the misunderstandings. It felt like I was drowning in the sea and there was nobody to help because the only help I had was now gone.  She never looked at me and I never turned back. Maybe it was just the destiny that we drifted apart and it broke me because she was no more just a friend she was family, a part of my life ; a very important part.
After one year when we met in high school and she asked me to sit with her it was the best I repeat the best day of my entire school life and of course why not my bestfriend was talking to me. It felt like a dream because I never thought we will be together again.  She still cares for me, she still stands beside me, I know she can still fight for me, she still saves me from creepy people but we have drifted away somewhere. That one day separated two bestfriends forever because now we are just very close friends.

Never spoil your friendship because of some misunderstanding, go talk to them clear it out because no matter how much you regret later you cannot undo something that you did.

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Hello readers!!

Sharing a personal experience with you all. So don't be silent reader tell me what you feel about my words. Share your that one experience with me that broke you forever. I will listen because I know how it feels.
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