Behind The Camera

Chapter 16

**Jisoo POV**

A week have already past since I confronted Jennie. To be honest I'm sad with her decision, I know it's very hard to her part and It's unfair to Lisa since she doesn't know anything about Jennie's true feelings. Actually It was unfair to the both of them, they just love each other but they don't have a choice but to do the right thing.

I observed Jennie after the confrontation, she focused herself more in trainings, she avoided the thai girl, she talked to Lisa casually and cold, and she distance herself to Lisa and It's not actually doing well, I know Lisa can feel it too.
I saw how Jennie struggled so much every time she's with Lisa. I saw the sadness and hurt in her eyes, all the sparks and joy are completely gone, and It's hurting me too.

This path that we chose surely will change us, and we have to sacrifice everything for our dreams.

Today we are here now in our training room, we just finished a three round of dance practice and we are all exhausted. But Lisa was still goofing around as usual. She played baby shark to her phone and started to dance like an idiot, we are just watching her and laughing really hard while lying on the floor.

"Baby shark to do do do, baby shark!" Lisa sings while dancing like a kid. I glanced at Jennie and I saw she's smiling but her eyes was full of sadness.

"Jennie-unnie! Watch this!" Lisa said excitedly I think she's trying to catch Jennie's attention as she danced like a monkey. But Jennie excuse herself and didn't mind Lisa.

"I'll just go the toilet." Jennie said not looking to Lisa and got off to the training room.
Lisa slowly stop her dance and turn off the music in her phone, she sat beside Rosè and frowned like a kid. I can feel that she knows the changes of Jennie towards her.

For the past days Lisa was trying her best to caught the attention of Jennie but Jennie was always turning her down and didn't mind her all the time. I know everyone of us noticed it too even Rosè and I think It's not becoming healthy for us as a group I need to do something about it. I sighed deeply.

"Lisa-monkey! Let's go! Let's eat ice cream my treat!" I said trying to lift up the mood of Lisa because she's so down right now.

"Yehey! Free Ice cream!" Rosè said excitedly ready to go. I just face palm myself and shake my head lightly. It's really hard to have kids.

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**Lisa POV**

It hurts. I don't know what I did wrong to Jennie. She changed a lot like a lot! She's not laughing anymore to my jokes and she's not coming with me everytime I invite her to eat, and the worst part is she doesn't look me in the eyes anymore. It feels like hell. It really hurts

For the past week I am thinking everything and It making me crazy. Well, she still talked to me when it comes to practice and trainings but when I was starting a new converstion she will just left me or she's doing something to drift herself away from me.

Sometimes I thought maybe she doesn't want me as a friend anymore, maybe she doesn't want me to be part of the group because I'm a thai but I shrugged all my thoughts, I know Jennie is not like that we are all together for the past years and she knows I only have her before Jisoo-unnie and Rosé came to the picture, she became one of my strength when I was starting here, she knows all of it. But why? I don't know what to do anymore. I feel the heaviness in my eyes, tears starting to run down.

"Jennie, I'm sorry If I did something wrong." I cried while hugging my pillow this feeling is breaking my heart, it draining me a lot.

I am wiping my tears when I heard a knock on my door.

"Lisa, may I come in?" It's Rosé. Before I can open my mouth to shoo her away she already open the door holding chips and two cartons of chocolate drink.

"Let's eat and drink!" She said with a wide smile on her face.

"Go away kangaroo." I said tiredly.

"Oh my gosh Lisa, what happened to you? You look like a zombie but you more look like a depressed monkey hahaha" She said teasingly, I know she's just tryin to lift up my mood. I just rolled my eyes, lyed down and cover my face with my pillow.

"Cheers to all heart broken people in the world!" She said, as she lift up her chocolate drink and giggled like an idiot.

"So Monkey what happened to you? How are you?." Right after she asked me, I bursted to tears and hug her tightly.

"Shush shush I know Lisa I know.." she said while rubbing my back and brushing my hair with her finger tip.

I just cried that night with Rosé not speaking any words. I just let my tears to run down and speak what my heart wants. This is the first time I did this. It's fucking hurts. Oh Jennie, why it really hurts?

I just want everything to be fine. I don't want to feel this anymore.

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