Behind The Camera

Chapter 1

I've been here for one year already, I saw a lot of people come and leave. I spent more than eight hours a day to train myself more, to build myself and to show them that I am belong to this industry. I've cried a lot of times because of pressure and stress whenever the evaluation is coming. I strived hard for this, even though It was just one year since I do the training, I felt that I can't afford to lose this chances that's why I'll do my best to prove them that I can do it. I choose this path, I choose this destination there's no turning back.

"Good job Jennie Kim, you passed the month-end evaluation, but you have to polished your choreoraphy and dance moves more, and also your vocal skills. Just stay focus and do your best ."

The man with a hat commended my performance earlier. He is the CEO of this entertainment company. I feel relieved from his words tho I need to practice more because I don't want to fail this and go home. My performance earlier was evaluated by three people, those three people are tough critic and also perfectionist, they want us to do everything perfectly because for them there are no rooms for untalented people and mistakes, we must do our performances flawlessly.

"Thank you so much. I will do my best and train more. Thank you for all of your comments I'll surely do everything to improve my skills."

I think I get to used to criticized by them, they will say any words they want, if they saw any flaws to your performance they will say it right away, if they are unsatisfied, they will say it right in front of your face, If they think you can't no longer stay then you don't have a choice than to leave. Becoming a KPOP artist is no joke, the standards are way more higher than a building. you have to prepare yourself for something worst that might happen that's why you have to train more and do your best in every way.

"To those trainees who failed today's month-end evaluation, I'm sorry we cannot do something about it, but you are all strong because I know you all do your best, thank you for all the effort you put during your trainings but we all know that this is survival of the best... we only want best of the best in this company. Take care everyone bye."

I saw five people crying in the corner, I felt sorry for them I can see in their eyes that they wanted to stay more to prove that they can become a KPOP artist I bet all of us wants it too. We are all the same here, we are all dreaming to become an idol one day.
One of my dorm mate failed today's evaluation I walked into her to comfort her because that's the only thing I can do in this situation.

"Hey it's okay, everything's gonna be fine. I know you are great and failing this evaluation doesn't define you. You can still achieved your dreams, this is not the only entertainment company you can join, there's a lot out there... you know what?, while watching your performance earlier, I can see how much you improve and I'm so proud of you."

"Thank you Jennie, thank you cause you are always right there to boost me up, thank you so much for encouraging me all the time... but I think I should stop this dream, maybe I am not really talented as others... and I realized this is not for me. But promise me you will make it until the end okay? You will become an idol no matter what!"

I sighed. My heart ache hearing those words. My heart felt the pain from every words she said. I don't know what to say. I think this is how it supposed to be, this cold hearted world we chose are either will destroy us or build us.

Another day of success for others

Another day of sorrow for some

Another day of new hope

And another day to prove to them that I can do this. I will make it 'till the day of my debut...

Jennie Kim you can do this! Now or never.

Bring it on...