Mixed emotions

Other Side Of You

You spoke so sweet  that first date
Melting my heart with sweet words
The connection we had
Reminded me of school yard crushes
So pure and innocent
That summer together was pure heavan
Hours together by the pool
Locked in endless hugs and kisses
Days spent locked in your arms
With zero desire to be anywhere else
Noone made me feel as blissful as you
I told you everything about me
Every secret and every regret i had
Every dream and wish and desire
With you i felt like i could be myself
I no longer needed to live in a ficade
Then that dreaded day finally came
The day that summer had to end
It was finnaly time to go back
Back to the real world and reality
A place full of pain and tottal sorrow
But i stayed by your side the best i could
No matter how much support i gave
It never seemed to be enough to you
You always preferred to turn to the bottle
Whether it was the alcahol or the pills
You didnt care as long as it made u forget
Yet i still faught to be by you through it all
But it seemed the more i fought
The harder you tried to push me away
At first all you fought with was your words
They were as sharp as razor blades
and as toxic as a pure dose of acid
But over time i built up an immunity to them
After months of the pain they caused
Thats when you started drinking more
It was at the bottom of those bottles
That you words turned to fists
The internal wounds became visible
It turned from cuddles and kisses
To black eyes and hidden cuts
Those days of bliss and innocence
Turned to days of shades and makeup
Painting on a daily mask of happines
Still i fought to stand by your side
No matter what you did to me
I refused to walk away and leave u alone