rise up.

chapter 6

*robins pov*

today is the day that everyone has been dreading. i stand there staring in the mirror- black dress, black heels.

the door opened a bit and jared slipped in, "hey rob we have to go now..." he whispered.

"okay." i said picking up my phone and a soft jacket. we walked down and i linked arms with aaron.

i stood up at the service, time for my speech. come on robin its for him. "i know that this hasnt been easy on anyone," i said softly into the mic. "but we all have that blake shaped hole in our lives. we just have to remember the good stuff, aye?" i looked toward my new family, "how excited he was that day in the orphanage just to meet you guys, the joy on his face when he knew he was really going to have a family. all the days after and inbetween, tours and parties and movie nights. he kept me sane in the darkest part of my life and i promised him that i would never stop looking for home. so i wont. we all need a-" i choked on the tears, deep breath. "we all need a home, and we cant stop looking." the tears flowed down my face as people stood up, a few leaving and most comforting each other.

blake loved every one, and here is where it showed.

i was hugging jinxx, crying a bit but mostly just calming myself, when i was tapped on the shoulder.

i looked up to see a guy, 25 maybe, in nice jeans and a white dress shirt with a beanie in his hand that probably covered his shaggy black hair most of the time. he coughed a bit and blinked away the tears i saw in his eyes, eyes filled with regret and guilt and pain.

"uhm im jack. i dont think we have met but i was in the-" i watched a tear roll down his cheek, he wiped it away quickly. "im just sorry i didnt call fast enough, if i had just called for help two seconds earlier maybe he wouldnt have-" he finally just choked and stopped.

i understood. i didnt yell, i didnt cry, and i didnt break. i knew that he was sorry and now he needed someone just as bad as me. he stumbled back a step when i hugged him, his confusion was obvious so i whispered, "i know how sorry you are but it wont change anything, just dont forget him."