Hope In Their Eyes: book 2

Chapter 31: Silence broken

Sam follows me to the shower and speaks up. "Listen, I know how hard it is for you to speak of anything about it but I need you to open up to me eventually please," he begs. What I don't get is why he wants to know of all the horrible things his girlfriend has gone through. Like who wants to know all the abusive stuff about their girlfriend and every detail. Like what is it with men, like I understand they wanna comfort but some things just don't wanna be discussed but I know I can't keep pushing him away. "Please, Sky."

I throw my clothes on the floor and step in the shower letting the water run down my body. "Really? What are you getting out of this Sky?" He picks up my clothes from the floor and puts them in a bin. "I don't wanna talk about it Sam," I snap. He runs his hands through his hair losing patience. "I want to be there for you Sky, I wanna help end your suffering, I wanna heal your wounds," he says gently. I sigh and wash my hair with soap. "Can you change the past, and I highly doubt licking my wounds will heal me," I say. He goes silent and doesn't speak up for awhile, not knowing what to say. "I'm fine, Sam," I reassure. He sighs and stands on the other side of the glass of the shower door. "Baby I just wanna be here for you, I feel like you've closed up completely, I want to love and care for  you but your not letting me." Sam replies, hesitantly.

"Baby didn't I tell you not to push it..." Sky says, softly. While washing her body and finished showering. Sam wraps a towel around her as she steps out of the shower. "Okay baby, but you can't hold it back forever." Sky sighs in defeat.
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"Why can't we just get rid of her their not gonna give up, there are plenty of whores out there, we don't need her. And I don't understand why you keep her in your room." I hear a slam against the door and flinch. "Are you questioning me Miller? And keep your voice down would you ? She gots ears still." He snaps. "No sir, I'm sorry, then what should we do?" He says hesitantly . "We set a trap." Landon replies. "Traps?" I felt my heart rising frantically as I was starting to get happy Sam was coming for me but then my hope died as they talked about the traps, and worry crept upon me. They discussed it longer and I listened carefully. Slam! I jumped as the door flew open into me. Frightened I crawled back with the chains. "Is my little bitch misbehaving? Tsk tsk." He clicked his tongue and walked toward me. I crawled back until dread came upon me as my back hit the wall. He grips my hair and yanks my head back. "Your gonna have to do me a little favor now." Zip! I heard as he undid his pants.
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I shook my head in a daze as a flashback was triggered. "STOP, JUST STOP!" I say in the floor and clutched my head crying. "I-I can't!" I started stuttering and having a panic attack. Sam leaned down to me and grasp me in his arms and stroked my hair gently trying to calm me down as I eased my breathing. "I know baby, I know." And I feel a tear hit my head and I look up to find Sam crying. Why is he crying? "I'm sorry baby, I'm so fucking sorry." He says as he is crying. "I know your pain baby, trust me, but to see you suffer like this and to see all these marks , it just cuts my heart, I hate seeing you hurting baby, I should've protected you better." He sobs in my hair and I caress his face and I cry with him. Sam, grasps my chin and kisses me deeply. "I'm so sorry baby, it's my fault.." Sam wipes a tear from my cheek.

I grab his hand and hold his palm to my lips. "No baby, don't say that, it's not your fault, please don't blame yourself," I sob as I hold his hand. And we stay like that for what seems like forever just being in each others warm embrace.

Then with every ounce of courage I can muster I tell him only the parts that I have flash-backed too so far and I poured my heart out to him and told him I blacked out for most of it so it's coming back to me in parts and I can't remember everything or I just don't want to. Sam sobs even more and I've never seen him so heartbroken in my life, or cry so much in front of him.
"All those months, I couldn't bare it, being without you and not knowing what was happening to you killed me, and the videos they sent me. I could not bare the pain I felt in my heart it was like I was grasping for air," Sam explained. Dread fell upon me just to imagine what he been through but the videos? "What videos..." I said so quietly it was whisper. Sam's eyes grew wide as he realized I never knew. Oh my god... "Tell me, what videos, Sam!" My heart has crestfallen too the floor and I was losing it, as if it couldn't get any worse.
"Show me." I said, feeling a void.

"Sky..." he approaches gently. "Tell me now Sam, I have a right to know!" I exclaim. My memory was bits and pieces and I deserved to know what happen to me. "Baby.. I don't think that's a good idea, your already suffering with the flashbacks," he whispers. How could he keep this from me, he has no right! I feel myself angry now, "Show me the damn video, Sam Please!" I ask. He shakes his head, "I'm sorry baby, I can't... I don't wanna put you through more pain!" What on earth was on the video, that Sam even wanted to protect me from it? 
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Hello my readers! I hope everyone is well, I know covid had got a lot of us suffering a lot so why not sit back and enjoy. Here is another chapter for you! Like and share, and let me know what you think so far. Your all greatly appreciated, all my love.
Shy