Wof as humans

chapter ten..i think {well shit}

(TW this chapter may make some people uncomfortable, in forms of mentions of abuse and panic attacks TW)

I ran fast and kinkajou handed the phone off to me because we knew i was the only one who might be able to outrun the moon. I dropped the phone off in a kinkajous dorm in the 'secret' spot and walked to my own dorm, despite doing well in the tryouts and this little prank i was incredibly stressed today, you see I have a hard time forgetting things. Now you might think that's cool and useful but... you can't forget the bad memories either, and that's my problem, my childhood was the worst experience of my life and remember each beating, every harsh word in perfect detail! It racked in my brain over and over, it was hard and cold. I sometimes felt less like my happier self and I kinda felt depressed whenever this wave of perfectly preserved abuse flashed through my head. I cringed eternally as yanked the dorm door open, my roommate was the lovely elsa, but i wasn't in a good mood so i'll leave little miss.needstoletitgo (needs to let it go, if you didn't understand that) have some peace a for today, i flopped onto my bed having fully moved into the the dorm i wouldn't be going home tonight. I saw a text from my mother, thorn and pulled it up reading it with a smile

DA good & godly sandy mom : hey qibli! How was your second day humm? Oh and.. Do you have the... 'test' back yet?

Heyo! Today was fine, I tried out for the football team, and found out one of my friends can sing! And i think got an email for the... 'test' goodbye : little sandy jewel stealer

I bit my lip at the last part. The 'test' was a sensitive topic for me so that made it sensitive for my mom. I didn't want to check that email yet, I was too scared, so I pulled out my homework I got from science this morning. It was easy for me because we talked about this in the class and I have a photographic memory.. Well that is a sensitive topic to, damb. I really am putting myself down in my very deepest pits of discomfort today. I hesitantly loaded up my emails well aware that winter was watching me, I must have seemed odd this afternoon, not smiling,  no joking around and I was moving like a robot. My email loaded up and I saw a new email delivered by the mayfly doctor agency. I took a nervous breath in and opened it, my eyes read it and widened with shock... nonoon no this is not happening! NO! Why! WHY?!? No.. please no.. i clenched my chest i breathed in and out at an unhealthy speed my thought rusheed around my head and in between inconmpetent thought and mys scream of no in my head i thought, oh god i'm having a panic attack and winter is watching me! I put my head in not my knees and mumbled nervously and my heart thundered in my chest. My shaky hand crashed against my head and the last thing I remember was Winter running out the door yelling "MOON KINKAJOU ANYBODY?" and then i blacked out

HAHAHA CLIFFHANGER

You : no cliffhangers *holds a knife to my throat *

Me: TOO BAD *runs outta the room*

-thank you so much for being so patient. I had a big writer's block but it's gone and i'm inspired now! I can't believe we are over 200 reads thanks this means so much to me! I NEVER THOUGHT this many people would read my story and I'm so grateful! Also i apologize for any T, that you might have experienced and i'm sorry of i couldn't represent the panic attack right and also, #blackhistorymonth respect all races, My lovely doritos! Luv you all! Bai <3