Distressed

ch 16; Flash's apartment

He don't know what he expected of Flash's place.
Perhaps something more than this.
The apartment is less than he expected and it seems Flash doesn't even have a real bed.
It seems the couch is some kind of bed there you pull out the seats and make it into a place to sleep on.
Then the apartment is a mess with dirty laundry spread around on the floor and hanging over furnitures.
Amadeus would understand if a normal guy as Micheal or himself would have this kind of home. But Flash?
Flash is the star of New York's favorite team in football.
Isn't he supposed to have a fancy place?
"Something wrong Amadeus?" Flash asks when he approaches Amadeus from behind.
Amadeus jolts and turns around.
"I-... I'm surprised that's all..." he chuckles nervously.
Flash tilts his head.
"Surprised? About what?"
Amadeus shrugs.
"Ehm... I thought celebrities like you are living in place who gives you the feeling of being in a castle...Yeah..." Amadeus blushes and hopes he hasn't crossed the line and sounded as rude.
Flash's apartment has only one room except the toilet and the kitchen.
There isn't even a proper hallway, instead you are walking directly into the living room from outside.
Flash smiles.
"Well... I don't see the point of having a bigger place when I'm living alone... But if I got a partner...A family... I would gladly move out and find a better place" he shrugs.
Amadeus nods.
"Of course... Perhaps a bigger place would make a single person feeling even more alone..." he grins.
Flash exhales smiling.
"Yeah maybe..." he says softly and is about to reach his hand out against Amadeus, when Amadeus suddenly spins around and walks further into the apartment.
"Are these all trophies you have won?" Amadeus asks gasping and walks to the shelves with golden trophies placed on them.
At first Flash looks confused and lost by Amadeus walking away from him. Then he grins and walks against the shelves with his trophies from the years as football player.
"Yup..."he nods and stands with crossed arms beside Amadeus who is kneeling a bit to examining some of the trophies.
"Awesome..." Amadeus exhales.
Flash grins proudly of himself.
"Well... I couldn't have done it without the team supporting me..." Flash blushes and rub his backhead shyly of getting praise from Amadeus.
Amadeus smiles gently at Flash which makes Flash's heart to skip a beat.
The blond man clears his throat.
"If... If you are hungry I can warm the food up I made yesterday..." Flash suggests and starts getting really nervous of being around Amadeus.
Amadeus stands upright and nods.
"Okay... Do you need help with something?"
Flash inhales deeply and shakes his head.
"No it's fine... You can make yourself comfortable and sit down or something..." Flash says before he starts walking out to the kitchen.
Amadeus tilts his head asking and is following Flash's movements with his eyes until Flash walked into the kitchen.
Then he smiles snorting and walks over to the three seat couch.
Amadeus looks asking at the pile of clothes on the couch.
Where is he supposed to place them?
He looks around and spots an office chair by the desk closest the big windows.
Amadeus shrugs and starts picking the clothes up by scoping them with his arms.
Then he takes the clothes to the blue and black chair and dumps them onto it.
Hopefully Flash hasn't anything against he is placing the clothes somewhere else.

Amadeus smiles widely when Flash places a homemade pizza on the table who is actually a kitchen table and not a coffee table.
"Looks great!" Amadeus praises him for the half ugly pizza with ham, cheese, mushrooms and pizza spice.
Flash chuckles shyly.
"Thanks... Somehow I managed to pull this off...I thought I would needed to buy a store-bought pizza... But it seems this one is edible..."
Amadeus smiles.
"It really smells amazing... "
Flash grins and walks back into the kitchen there he grabs some things to the dinner.
Like cutlery, plates and drinks.

Amadeus raises his eyebrows when Flash suddenly places a can with beer in front Amadeus.
He clears his throat and gets Flash's attention.
"Excuse me for struggling but..." Amadeus exhales nervously and starts fidgeting.
Flash looks asking at him.
"What?"
Amadeus gulps.
" I'm... I haven't turned eighteen yet... It feels wrong to drink alcohol at my age... Don't you have some juice or something? If not... I'm fine with water..." Amadeus blushes and starts fidgeting more since he hates to shout out his young age around older people than himself.
Sometimes it's easier being with Sam since they are in same age. Even though Sam's childish behavior sometimes gets on his nerves.
But Amadeus can at least breath out around Sam and even sometimes feeling as the oldest one between them.
Being with much older people makes him feeling as the baby.
And he hates it.
He wants to be mature and being seen as a grown up.
"Oh right... I'm used with my guests want beer... I forgot you aren't one of them...Sorry..." Flash apologies and takes the beer he had given Amadeus.
"I will see if I have something else..." he adds and walks back out to the kitchen.
Amadeus gets bad conscience of imposing Flash when he only wanted to be hospitable.
Amadeus sees how the fridge gets opened.
Flash hums thoughtfully while he puts the beer back into the fridge.
"Sorry... It seems I have only beer and an expired milk..."
"Then water is fine..." Amadeus shrugs.
Flash hums bothered.
"But... I don't have water either..." he says half mumbling with the fridge still opened.
Amadeus chuckles.
"I mean... Water from the tap..." he smiles.
"Oh...Then I have some water..." Flashs snickers and closes the fridge again.
Flash fills a glass with ordinary water and gives the glass to Amadeus when he is back in the living room.
"Thanks..." Amadeus says with a lower voice and takes the glass.

Amadeus tries figure out his feeling for Flash.
He is pretty sure the most of his feelings for Flash is just admiration. Like a fan to a celebrity.
But then is there the feeling of love.
The good question is; is the love enough to choose Flash before Micheal?
Amadeus's heart pounds louder of the thought of Micheal.
He gets the feeling that; the love for Flash isn't as great as the one he feels for Micheal.
Perhaps Micheal has been the one from the beginning?
Amadeus clears his throat of his own thoughts.
Before he starts doing something about those thoughts he should perhaps meet Micheal one more time before he decides something.
"Amadeus? Something wrong?" Flash asks beside him and have'd moved closer while Amadeus was stucked with his own thoughts.
Amadeus squeaks surprised when he got startled.
He shakes his head.
"I'm fine... I only have a lot thoughts in my mind... Which I use to have..." Amadeus explains blushing of getting caught on the hook.
Flash snickers smiling.
"It's funny..." he starts saying.
Amadeus tilts his head.
"What's funny?" He asks curiously and looks asking at Flash.
"How alike you are your father..."
"Who?" Amadeus asks and doesn't know if he should be insulted or proud. Well, it's nothing wrong with his parents; but what kid want to hear how alike they are their parents?!
"Peter..." Flashs smiles softly and seems being somewhere else in his mind.
Amadeus starts pouting a slightly of jealousy.
Great, now he is jealous of his own papa.
And why does he cares? He is pretty sure Micheal is the one...Then...Why does his heart hurts of seeing that dreaming face of Flash?
Amadeus inhales deeply and tries fixing his muscles in his face to calm down.
"Wow... The food was really great... You are an amazing cook, thanks..." Amadeus says with a forced smile on his face, whose corners tries going back down.
Flash gasps silently and pulls back to the reality there he without getting a chance to control himself, pins Amadeus down onto the couch.
Amadeus wides his eyes and looks up at Flash who holds his wrists.
"Flash?..." he gasps while his body tingles excited.
Flash leans down against him and presses his lips impatiently at Amadeus's lips.
The boy jerked.
Flash starts moaning and starts letting his tongue into Amadeus's mouth.
Amadeus furrows his eyebrows.
Not sure if he really is ready for this, and with Flash as sex partner.
The one he loses his virginity to.
Suddenly Flash starts rubbing his hardon at Amadeus's groin.
Amadeus inhales sharply.
Yeah, he starts getting turned on of that, but he isn't ready.
"Stop..." Amadeus begs gasping when he broke the kiss by turning his face away.
"Why?" Flash pants.
"I-...I don't want to... Not now..." Amadeus explains and feels how tears start threatening to building up in his eyes.
Flash stops moving and is examining Amadeus curiously.
Then he exhales snorting.
"Fine... I'm sorry to rush things..." Flash apologies and starts moving away from Amadeus and let's go off his wrists.
"I hopes it isn't the other man who make you to hesitate..." Flash mutters silently.
Amadeus sits up.
" It's not..." he mumbles and wanted to add 'he isn't the whole reason', but decided to left that part out.
He inhales deeply.
"I'm virgin... I don't want ...Ehm... I need more time..." he adds blushing.
Flash raises an eyebrow.
"Oh... Then I understand..." he snickers grinning.
"I will let you take the time you need..."
Amadeus nods slowly.
"Thanks..."