LifE OF MinE🤎

Chapter Ten: Date-ing

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Xander doesn't show up for the date as planned, he stands Jah up with no explanation.

Not that he'd meant to though. For whatever reason what Timmy had said had got into his head and scared him a little. Okay maybe it scared him a whole lot, but that's not the point.

Sex wasn't something he'd really given much thought. He never really liked anyone who showed even the slightest interest in him, plus he had more important things to worry about so he never stopped to consider sex with anything other that his right hand.

What if that was all Jahsae wanted from him? What if he just wanted to have sex with him and check off a name from his list like his friends were bragging about the other day? After all, every girl and boy in this school would sell their parents in the black market to get with him, what then could he be looking for in Xan other than sex?

Xan wasn't even saying having sex with him would be the worst thing on earth, but what did he know about being intimate with a real life human? What if he didn't know what to do? What if he put the wrong thing in the wrong place and everything is all awkward? Jah would probably laugh at him and tell the entire school that he's a loser.

Xan must've gotten deep in his thoughts because he found himself standing at the entrance of Lola's room without realizing how he got there.

"Where are you going? You just got back." He asked her in panic, seeing as she was evidently getting ready to go out.

Lola gave her baby brother an accessing look, before grabbing her keys and wallet. "Only to the mall." She said. "Are you okay? Why are you freaking out?"

"I'm not." He hesitated. "I don't know." He admitted at last, playing with his fingers.

"You wanna tag along? Although I must warn you, I'm shopping for lady care stuff, so you might have to wait in the car if you don't want to be around all that."

"I don't mind." Xan replied, grabbing a jacket that he was sure belonged to X, and followed Lola out.

Minutes later Xander was sitting in the cart while Lola pushed him around, picking out items that looked foreign to him.

"And why are you listening to Timmy anyway? He probably wouldn't recognize a dick if it slapped him in the face. He knows nothing."

Xan chuckled, then shrugged. "I mean he said he was kidding afterwards, but the thought was already planted in my head you know."

Xan had told his confidant every single detail about all she'd missed on their way over, and as expected he was feeling better already.

"What's this?" He picked something from the shelf that looked funny.

"It's a vibrator, you want one?"

He scrunched up his face and said, "no thanks."

"Suit yourself. That might just help you take the pressure off and get you out of your head."

He thought about it for a moment, then shook his head no, and they kept going.

"Go to school tomorrow, put on your big boy pants and talk to that incredibly hot man before Paris Hilton or whatever swoops him off his feet."

"She's like 50 or something." Xan commented, rolling his eyes.

"Even worse. Don't let a 50 year old bitch take your man bro, that'll be real sad. Plus she's hot hot, sheesh."

"He's not my man. Not really."

"But you likeeeeeeee him." She teased.

"Shut up." Xan laughed.