She's Mine... - A Michael Clifford Fanfiction

Chapter 2 - The Letter

April 30, 2013

Dear Michael,

I'm sorry about this. I never meant for any of this to happen.. You're probably wondering who I am. I'm Sydney Martin. The name ring a bell? It probably does. We were high school sweethearts. You and I were inseparable. We were the most popular couple and voted the cutest couple at Norwest Christian College.

Do you remember when I told you I was moving to America? I remember that day so well.. It was the worst day of my life. I could hardly tell you. Do you remember the night before I left? That was the best night of my life. But I left for America the next day, and I was sad again.

Guess what I found out a few weeks later? I was pregnant. I decided not to tell you. I didn't want you to give up the band for me. So, I went through most of the pregnancy smoothly. That was, until I found out something shocking. I had cancer. Lung cancer. And I was still pregnant. They didn't know how that would affect the pregnancy. It didn't. Not one bit. As you can probably see, our daughter is perfectly fine. She was born on April 6, at 2:37am. She weighed 6lbs 4oz. She was a small baby, and still is. She's small and fragile, so please be careful with her (especially around the boys). I hope you'll love her as much as I do, though. I know how protective you were of me, so I'm predicting you'll be very careful and protective of her.

I am writing this letter, then I'll give it to my sister Alyssa so she can fly to Australia with our baby and put her and this letter on your doorstep. I'll give you Alyssa's phone number in case you have troubles. Call her whenever, and I also had Alyssa pack all of her stuff in a bag. It should be sitting right beside the basket. There is some formula in there along with bottles, and diapers (that should only last less than a week.. I'm sorry), some clothes, some toys, and a playpen for her to sleep in until she gets a crib. I hope you have the money (and you probably do because of the band).

I'm also writing the letter now because the doctor's say they don't know how much time I have left. They don't know when I'm going to leave. I don't want our daughter to get attached to me, then have me leave, then have to get used to you. So, I'm letting her get used to you now. I hope you'll be able to keep her.. If you can't, she'll have nowhere to go because I'm always in the hospital now and I can't take care of her. Then, I won't even be in the hospital. My parents can't keep her because they kicked me out when I told them I was pregnant. Alyssa came with me, though. She can't keep a baby on her own, so I'm giving her to you to take care of. You're the last person I can trust. Maybe the boys or Karen will help. Maybe even Liz or Joy or Anne Marie. Please take care of her.

You're probably wondering why I haven't said her name yet. I named her Natalie. I remembered that you said you liked that name. Her full name is Natalie Sydney Clifford. I used my name as her middle name so you'll always remember me.

I'll love you forever and ______, to the ____ of the _____ because you are my ______. I hope you're able to fill in the blanks. I hope you haven't forgotten. But Mikey, I love you and Natalie, and just remember, you were my first and only love.. I'll never forget you, and I really hope you won't forget me. I'll be watching over you and Natalie. I love you, babe.

Love,

Sydney E. Martin

I filled in the blanks to make it say our little saying. The thing we said to each other at least once a day: I'll love you forever and always, to the end of the earth because you are my world.

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Awww.... Michael's a daddy!!! :)

-Lizzie xx